Creature

An appetite I could not shake
like erupting black rains
that dark appetite awakened 
desire molting the core of the cosmos
you vanished like the albatross
and the deep did rot
who am I in the starving dark?
Madonna the alchemist
what I want: to fracture and to disintegrate
drawing Excalibur in latticed cities  
weaponized jewels for the Lethe ferryman 
reality clawed at the small of my back 
or was it you and did I forget? 
Madonna the earth creature 
to fracture and to disintegrate is all I await 
dark appetites like sirens screaming in my spine 
into the unknowable storm worlds I go 
bait of Eve in the tessellating dark 
I had a fatal attraction to appetite
What a strange atlas mankind and the heavens 
your dominion of silence like Arctic winds
Snakes slithering up my spine
Madonna governess of voids 
I witnessed: fireflies in the forest recesses
Thunderbirds in the scattering earth 
We were falling like night rains 
In the deeps, the sirens screamed—
This is you and me 
In the temple of the earth 
I was breathless Sappho before the hollows of your throat
and I worshipped—
Madonna of poison wolfsbane
Living in the mountain meadow mist 
A slither of night winds breathing with me 
I was drowning like ghost ships in northern seas 
When desire captured me
Madonna burning with fireflies in twilight 
to fracture and to disintegrate is all I await 
an appetite I could not shake 
pierced by an angel
pierced by radiance
it was desire dreaming of harvest
thunderbirds in the scattered earth 
Tell me which is worse 
the achievement of desire
or annihilation?
The violent night winds splitting me 
or my life in ellipsis ?
bondage in a belt of light 
or dying twice: once for desire, once for appetite?
Madonna of the many darknesses
I was a cosmos of memories 
annihilation as imitation of the divine
Fire snaking up my spine 
Ecstasy from the belt of light 
Prophets of smoke blooming voids in the hollows of my throat 
Burning limb by limb 
Desire that crucifix 
By the belt of light I was whipped 
Heartache I disintegrate and fracture and recreate 
Dreamless cosmos
Madonna awoke in the crossroads 
Bonded to a belt of light 
You called my name 
and I was annihilated 
and I wanted it again 
Appetite I died in your abyss of eyes
There was fire in my spine 
I choked on prophets of smoke
Blooming voids in the hollows of my throat 
Requiem of fire for a mind in exile
Desire I wanted like a begotten newborn
I chose survival over you
Immortality with the cloaked stars
You biting at the soft of my neck, how could I forget?
Beauty and the beast, it was me in flux with my gnawing heartbeats 
what company do you keep if it’s not me and mine?
what abundance I craved: you setting fires on my spine
Desire like a wound possessing me 
Down on my knees for no reason and I called it freedom 
Fatal attraction yes the darkness did devastate
Fiat lux yes gods were breathing in our lungs but it was suffocating us
Decades of dreams gathering dust in nocturnal floods 
Furies of lingering fire, you were ruin surviving 
The dark appetites gathering sacrifices 
Prisoner of desire and desire did keep me and I was complete
Heavenly creature, you had the Decadence of Dawn
Stranger in the desert without a savior
Madonna the mythologist
Life this disturbance of dust 
I died for this ribs genesis
bondage to appetite
Down on my knees for no reason and I called it freedom 
sublime victory for a creature like me
To rise from annihilation only to die again
Ruin it was rising
Ruin it was surviving
There was decadence in desolation 
In how many dark californias was I your slave?
this appetite I could not shake 
Like erupting black rains
That dark appetite awakened 
Desire molting the core of the cosmos
You vanished like the albatross
and the deep did rot