Daughter of Man
My sister is a theosophist who lives by the sea and the French government is telling me to have children and I want to live! I want to live! My greatest hubris as a writer is that I believed I loved and lived more deeply than other people. I am writing the fragility and the fragility is writing me this is genesis this is the end again twenty-eight years later there was opium in the skies as a lotus-eater in rapture I witnessed the Earth’s decadence and then the Infinite Witnessed Me this is the fire of lightning daughter of man you will rise again
Wild thing I went into the eddies of Oblivion again
sleepwalking through the vestige apocalypse—
daughter of man from the fallen Earth
East of Eden I was sinking in a dreamless dusk
I spent the end of days in the angels wastelands
wild and wounded you will breathe again daughter of man
sleepwalking through the sorrows of the wastelands
chained angels on the pavements in the massacre of mornings
meet your maker meet your grave again in the infinite fields of night the Messenger in the lightning said you will rise again dreaming being but first you must suffer eternity
gored by the blood horizons I am void again from the blood horizons spilled crimson light as if from slashed wrists when in the land of falling black rains desire witnessed me
Behemoth of the wastes rising from the dark bays
daughter of man this is your grave this is your oblivion again
this is the mirror of moonlight this is how you die in an anguish of starlight
Desire this narcotic it was my heartbeat in the darkness
desire this burning genesis desire burned like lightning in me
this is Genesis daughter of man born in the first fires of the universe
this is the end and I am resurrected and chosen again
in the sacral dark daughter of man remind me who I am
I saw stars in labyrinths of parking lots desire this void of voids swallowing me
daughter of man here you are again swimming in the dark rivers of the starlight universe
wild and wounded like the starlight daughter of man in dreamless dusk you will breathe again!
revelations in the wasteland for the dreamless daughters of man in burning genesis
you disappeared into your dark daydreams I fear it is the end again
in the sulfur eternities the Infinite Witnessed Me
and said: Back in the battleground daughter of man I am your decadent end
