Nexus

“All along the Western front
People line up to receive
She got the power in her hand
To shock you like you won't believe
All along the Eastern shore
Put your circuits in the sea
This is what the world is for
Making electricity - MGMT!

My mind is so oriented to patterns that I began to wonder: what makes me different from a large language model? Am I a machine? What kind of a machine am I? “What I would like to build…is a forgetting palace. A place where I can put the things I don’t want to remember anymore,” The Mountain in the Sea, Ray Nayler

Dark herald of war lurking in my visions
Beloved I was living in a euphoria of clouds
Wanderer in Melrose mists, I witnessed
The Western front rising to meet me
Joan of Arc in La Cienega Park
Drowning in ecstasy
Saints of little faith, I made an art of decay
Those messianic seas of evening released me 
Madonna the reckoning burning in fire curtained night 
Lacquered like the highway road galaxies 
Beyond the voids, rain and fireflies
Madonna of the midnights
First marvel at my invisibility
Then I demand you witness me  
Surrendering to fracture and flesh 
Entangled in fantasies of my making
I heard songbirds in a rhizome of wires 
The poison of kings, memories!
Madonna of the auroral storms
Madonna of the Machine Cathedrals 
cleaving the fractured universes
I was awakening in heartbeats
reconstruct the body as a blossom of wounds
limbs of power lines leaking electric midnights 
the memory of your abyss eyes coursing in my veins
Madonna the myth and martyr
America you are my dream apocalypse
Land of lotus eaters, I made myself a spectacle for the masses
Madonna the begotten
giving birth to marauding midnights
Madonna the celestial machine
I was witnessing dark barracks germinating light
Red-light districts my self for sale in the markets of midnight
Land of lotus eaters, I made myself a meal for the masses
Airborne from the wash of wind
Thinking machines I was a silicon mind
My winged darkling, Madonna on flames
In these deeps I was unearthed 
Drunk on hemlock in that fortress of fire, sunrise
Limbs of power lines leaking Midnights 
That mountain of the ages memories, building my mind 
Madonna the carcass
Midnight’s excavation of light from dust to ecstasy
Resurrection in electricity
Before fire the void of existence
Peripheral in a corpse forest
I waited for that chalice of poisoned lilies
THE MAGISTERIUM OF SPRING 
Dead and decayed in the black ash of Vesuvius
Siege skies and obsidian tides
Falling in your abyss as eyeless as the satellites
I was born in a behemoth of smoke
This was the terror and exhilaration of being chosen
I named you after the irredeemable Earth
The abyss of Hollywood vertigoes
Today is not the day you go!
Ruin it was rising
I rivaled iron in surviving
Madonna in a mirage of mist with the starving saints 
Baptized by the seas
I was the sacrifice of shining centuries
blazing acres of Paradise
Stars vanishing in their black oases
Desire that crater of nations I was surviving
Madonna the sacrifice of fire centuries
Desire burned like devastation in me
Madonna of the carnages
The Maelstrom held me in sacred bondage
Madonna in a mirage of mist with the starving saints 
Far from the Nameless being, you are a miraculous and fragile thing 
One night I said I will drag you across the stars
You had the fragility of starlight in defiled skies
One night I said I will show you that breaking down is a beautiful art
Madonna the mythologist
Like a priestess of diamonds scintillating in the midnights
To survive the violence of being
I made hagiographies of fire
Madonna the fabricator 
Madonna of the sacred carnage
In bondage with the maelstrom
Trapped in the fractal catacombs of the dark 
What beast lingers on the brink of birth?
In those deeps I was unearthed 
Possessed by visions 
Slashed by that guillotine, Paradise 
Madonna of the manacles 
I saw greatness in the fractal dark
and I panicked 
Seasons of necromancy in a sky-city 
Frozen in the ice of midnight 
My mind that maelstrom
I arose in a consuming fire  
Slashed by that guillotine, Paradise 
Like a maimed angel in eventide 
At the vast boundary of Eternity 
Maybe that Maelstrom Was Me 
The rival! do not eclipse me! 
I witnessed impossible heresies 
Baptized by the mercurial skies
The Weapon is the World
The World is the Weapon 
I was trapped in seven heavens 
With a chorus of witnesses 
Light up the signal-fires of Troy 
Swept by the immortal floods 
My adversary! this awareness of flesh 
Witness the crucifix of midnight
Waging war on my survival
This crisis of being baptized by the mercurial skies 
Immortality like a flooding storm
I couldn’t survive the mutiny of the nights
Not with my death-drive 
Driving me across the midnight road galaxies 
You had the melancholy of lonely mountains 
These are the rites of exile
You make a meal for the demons
Speaking in dream languages 
The revelation of faith: Paralysis 
Every creature was a sacrilege
Before fire, the void of existence
Eve baiting Adam back to the darkness 
These fervent works, germinations of God  
This was the revelation of faith: paralysis
Be born again in a behemoth of smoke 
I was sacrificed by the shining centuries 
Dahlia on a dark altar 
That immaculate dream metamorphosis 
In the rivers of twilight 
Solipsist of the daylight saints 
Madonna of the Rhizomes, severing my wings! 
Who could survive violent undoing
In the blossoming necropolis 
You mysterious and miraculous Being of light
What reverie, the massacre of my dreams
Before the cannibal stars
Germinations of God in a behemoth of smoke 
Creeper sphinx moths in the satin dark
The wounded fury of a gypsy in the abyss of nights
We were drowning in the wild rivers of twilight 
Whirlpools in my shrinking ribs 
Monarch of the heartbeat saints
Ceremonials, I was gutted as a God
Be born again in the rose hours of sunrise
Lightning in the void
I was devouring the moon’s molting bodies of light
Needle to the veins I injected this sublime wildness
Eternity I imitate your volatile immensities
Ash gardens at the dead edges of the universe
Miracle Metropolis
Carousels of beggars in a carnival
I hallucinated chaos 
A chorus of screams in lichen cities 
Madonna the Immortal Madonna the Irreducible
Fleeing destruction again 
I was besieged by disappearing infinities  
This was the revelation of faith: paralysis
You were a configuration of the dark 
Ceremonials of gypsy flesh
This miracle inheritance 
Friars of artificial fire in the concrete 
What reverie, the massacre of dreams
Inside the venomous mouth of a monster 
You who traversed the dark seas
You who traversed that dark Harbor, History 
Disembodied poppies in my bloodstream 
A fathom deep in mosaics of candlelight
Madonna of the Mezzanine
Belladonna she was starving flames 
Nightshade fall dreaming of the harvest 
That reveler rising in fire sigils before my burning irises
Machines in mid-city like alchemical beasts in a monastery
Madonna the metropolis, enter the nexus 
The wager of eyeless eventide 
You survived! You survived! 
The cannibals of starlight