Nightwalk

STANDING AT VESUVIUS, I TELL THE FIRE’S WANING LIGHT I WILL BE YOUR BURNING SURVIVAL
SUMMON THE SEERS, THERE IS A GATHERING OF RAVENS IN THE DARKNESS
YOU SCREAMED MY NAME AS I WALKED INTO THE FLAMES
I FEAR THE BLEEDING OF ARTERIAL SUNRISE I FEAR THESE REMAINS OF MY LIFE
I FEAR THE SNAKE THAT CALLED MY NAME IN EMPTIED EDEN
I FEAR MY ENTRAPMENT I FEAR MY FREEDOM
I FEAR DESIRE’S REIGN I FEAR DESIRE’S ABANDONMENT
I FEAR THE BEGINNING I FEAR THE END
I FEAR STAGNATION I FEAR METAMORPHOSIS
I FEAR THAT I WAS YOUR DAUGHTER AT GENESIS
I AWAIT THE PEACE OF SERAPHIM SUMMER SKIES
THIS SPRING MOONLIGHT SHINES LIKE SELENITE KNIVES
Desire I am your ruined empire — that snake called my name, I want— I want— I want—
The seasons passed but the brewing stormclouds followed me
I want, I want — this world without you will be my undoing
How I hate these dead versions of myself: every blue evening I resurrect
Living in the cold cities, we are beings of frozen memories, what can the flesh ever forget?
Nightwalk amidst screaming legions of cicadas in the sweetgrass prairies
This rush of fulfillment won’t last but I chase it anyway—I choose my graves
Desire I witnessed your magic eclipsed: trying to contain you was like grasping into the mist
Awakening from a night burial in wine-dark waves yes I went back to flames again
This life without you will be my undoing, a flooded ghost-world with shores of smoke
The eternal problem of desire! you fracture and fragment me I’m covered by borrowed moonlight
Nightwalking without lanterns before the taxidermied mourning doves levitate
Stranded alone in this wasteland,I fear you left after you beheld the wreckage that awaited us
The rapture of desire! I went wandering in the nights seeking another oblivion to chase after
Victory is priceless, I witnessed a god in the ghost lights hiding from that predator desire
How can I endure sundering? We were at opposite edges of the nocturnal universe  
Come undone with me at shores of smoke, it’s the euphoria of the end that I chose
La violence de la nuit! avec le silence d’l’église— I vanished, I vanished into need
I witnessed desire’s birth in the wilderness—burning is a spectacle of flames
Midnight is an eternity, in the vastness of the darkness, I dream of ecstasies
Desire you give me the blindness of ships breaking across Atlantic night seas
What dark desires had their origins in me? Come and be fallen with me 
Eves of slavery, wild midnight witnessed me in the bondage of memories
Sunlight reaching behind my eyelids, I grieve but I cannot imagine a different life from desire
The violence! of silence! I wasted my faith when you went driving into the arteries of sunrise
Payback for a life of pursuit, first I hunted wild desire in the black waves
Desire the merciless, I surrender to your intoxicating blindness before vermillion sunrise
She is a bleeding priestess becoming memory, my stitches are spilling ichor and blood
Beauty is punishment, I dreamed of dissolution with infinity 
Insist on sinking in spring: in the fragile evenings, choose to become undone with me
Years of euphoria with the problem of desire: the filigreed skies take the staircase to sunrise
A COWARD AT THE ALTAR OF FLAMES, I AM STANDING AT VESUVIUS AGAIN
BROKEN BY THE YEARS, I TREASURE THESE SEASONS OF FLAMES
NIGHTWALK IN THE WASTELAND WITH FAMISHED DESIRE BY MY SIDE
LURED BY THE FATAL BEAUTY OF VESUVIUS, I DREAM OF BECOMING DUST
I WALK TO THE FLAMES AGAIN WITH A NEW NAME, A COWARD AT THE DARK ALTAR OF DESIRE
DEATH IS METAMORPHOSIS—I FEAR I WAS YOUR DAUGHTER AT GENESIS

I walked—I walked into that darkness