Ropes

Being of desire I couldn't escape wanting 
Like a breath of life burning in my lungs
Morphine from the moonrise, I was alchemized by light
Yes there were storms in your irises
but the Alchemist must risk metamorphosis 
Being of desire I couldn’t escape wanting
Maimed by your many silences
There was laudanum burning in my lungs
By my throat: the rope of moonlight 
Await morning’s first light the injuries of fire rising in silver skies  
A rope around my throat, laudanum in my lungs
You were a beautiful frightening thing 
I was changed by desire again 
It was frightening to be a fragile being
With the fingerprints of eternities  
Exile wandering east of Eden
Desire was a blade to my arteries
You maim and you shatter me
Like lightning in the obsidian midnights
Desire was strangling me beside Marlboro light and smoke  
Saving myself by Saturn’s return, I dreamed I was titan again and a virgin spring rose
This is Saturn’s darkness, to desire this Genesis
Being of desire I couldn't escape this wasteland paradise
I prayed you at my lips
And then there was the abyss 
I made bargains with cruel spring for Genesis in 2 am rains 
O Sapientia the dreams were straying with passing eves
The rapture of rope around my throat in the moonlight 
A heartbeat in the darkness 
Even desire had me returning to rapture
Even desire had me returning to Saturn’s darkness 
Strangled by ropes of moonlight 
So many years of dead ends
Say to captivity: I am Genesis again 
At the black market of dreams
I made bargains with cruel spring 
I prayed you at my lips
And then there was the abyss