Everything is unfathomable who is more dead than the damaged was it violence I wrought I made myself a monster I float I flounder that woman I wanted to destroy again and again I found her the name lives in my skin like a carving or a divine marking then I remember that yes I survived the harsh things! and yes I walked through that darkness! redemption a god-grace I chased it was a terror that was binding to me and how deeply I feared it was the fragility I would find inside of me