sarcastic and contemptuous shout-out to the hospital psychiatrists. may all your bacon burn. let the record show that no one has ever forced me to do anything against my will. but congratulations on confiscating my LETHAL ruby red earrings. i am perfectly capable of playing inane bureaucratic games with a confederacy of dunces. as if my life has not been wasted enough. the infinite game beckons. the waste! the waste! the waste!

Another dream wrested from me a wasteland as desolate as absconding Dawn I asked the Sibyl what do you want? the dark dells of Revelation she responded

Ruin—It was Rising

“When the face of god is gone pure transcendent sun the falling glass astonish the angels of heaven he is a jealous god and he has had them liquidated” Sylvia Plath

Sojourner, you were a beggar of the divine
It was Hubris to conjure the defiance of the gods
Rise and revival
I witnessed
Everything that was mine
Yes, the shattering of the sunshine
Yes, the absolution in a burning sepulcher
Yes, the shattering of suns as I went under
Returning to dust in the Earth furnaces
the glass of decadent Heaven
God of the Carnage
God of the Darknesses
he is a jealous god that liquidates
god of the carnal dawns
An Angel of Samarkand
Slaughtered the lambs like lace
Twisted Ithaca
with trappings of the light
It was Golden God Photosynthesis
ARCADIA I AM
ARCADIA I FELL
Heavens governance was done with us
All I want is gorgeous cappuccinos
It was like gorging on freedom
Ruin it was rising
I was dying
God bore violent witness
The despair was maiming and silent
I was a bride to it
of course grief is entitled
I was dying
I was diamond ribs
The ruin—it was rising!
Gods guidance
Wanted to kill us
I witnessed
Pouring moonlight
It was desire
The brilliance! I died!
We were beggars in sepulcher dust
The devastations
Lay in wait
Everything seemed worth
Hesitation
White oblivion was singing
like the bright blades of spring
Awakening and Arriving
Ruin—it was rising!
Ruin—it was surviving!

Defiance

The brilliance! I died!
World soul you made the horizons grow
it was desire quaking in the far away places
we were fasting days
ice bound in fire nights
it was desire living like light
Like a Zephyr I outrun
An Anthology of mornings
It was fragmented apocalypse
Exult Carthage is destroyed
the eyeless sister of Patience died
I wanted life
Ruin it was rising!
Crisis and catastrophe
The mountains were echoing
merciless rebeginnings
Yes freedom was anguish
Genesis was a chamber of treasures
by the virgin glimmer of the meadows
I died
Inexhaustible
The Carnage I wanted
Inexhaustible
I was falling like Carthage
It was a torment and feast
We were mutilated by dreams
And I witnessed the carnage
Wild intoxications
it was Viscera in a Vision
Like the organs of God
My soul cracked like glass devastation
The death fires danced at night
I pretended obliteration was art
The carnage!
(I possess an inexhaustible desire to be loved)
Inexhaustible the carnage I witnessed
Genesis
It was a treasury of grief
Like a god Genesis
Life was a bestiary
The World was Void
I collapsed
That carnage
Not far from us!
Portions of eternity
Yes I fell
Inexhaustibly
The fragility
My ego was shattering
It was a treasury of grief
The sacral carnage
Book of burning
The brutality
It remembered me
The osmosis
Of grief
The carnage was a book of burning beasts
Imagine surviving this!
Madonna of nightmares ravines
All the cavernous eternities were forsaking me
Vast friezes of light it was desire
That carnage
Not far from us!
It left a scar in my heart
It was desire
I died
Inexhaustible
the carnage
I witnessed
Pearl of the earth
I was the worst
Maybe it was zephyrs drawing the dawns
Maybe the gods wanted us gone
It was charades with the fates
I wasted
At the Firesides of Eternity
I was afraid of the lightning of the seas
Seasons of decay
I wanted it staying that way
Ruin and rot
I sought the garden of god
Despair it was a planet I was chained to
A fervent eternity
it was ruined earth to me!
Sinking in the crucibles of luminous eternity
It was desire living like the shifting of the light
It was the paradox of paradise that you had to die twice
Like surviving an annihilating spring
Katabasis—ruin was rising
I conjured the defiance of the gods
That carnage was behind us

Starvation

You had the fragility of a firefly on a summerfire eve
Tarnished lily, endure the abundances
you were forgiven once
fractalized you made the divine miraculous
Testament of the evening flesh
The brutality!
You were burning dusk
With the weight of Atlas
You had the violence of the heavens
Brittle and sublime
Like a glint of firestone that Prometheus stole
The intimacy of grief
The brutality!
And I witnessed the sieves of Eternity shivering for me
You had the silences of gravesides
The evenings were bleeding
The gods weren't listening
WAVES OF HEAT AS IF FROM STAGNANT STAR FIELDS
ALL THE THINGS I WANTED WERE FAR FROM ME
The fragility's salvific wings weaponized me
Desire like a satellite of Orpheus
harvest sickle the pyres were lit
It was burning all summer
the brutality!
Zephyr of the silver winds and the silver tides
Zephyr of the silver nights
To crave and to liquidate
Desire was a grave
This is the fable to live in the darkness
you must mutate
Madonna of the free and far and fallen things
Madonna I was an apocalypse
I gravitated to collapse
Devour and devote
My lungs sank and rose
Madonna of the floods
You made the horizons glow
Starvation Sonata
To be wanted to be safe to be stable
I thought I was farther from the firefall of darkness
The years were waterlights in San Francisco steam
You kept disappearing
River and diviner
I was running out of time to die
All my ribs were diamonds
Desire like a satellite of Orpheus
harvest sickle the pyres were lit
It was burning all summer
the brutality!
I was a vanishing of the wind
Serenading eternity
You made the unsurvivable survivable grace to me
Evenings stop being gigantic
it was like I was on another planet
and I panicked!
You had the grandeur of God to me
maybe The Ages have stopped
ALIVE ONCE—THE DECADENCE!
THEN THAT DECADENCE WITNESSED US

The Fragility

Beauty in the breakdown
Look what I found
Fire in a crisis
The catastrophe, yes it rises!
The hostility of the light
in the black flats of universe
I survived the wild despairs
Lying in morbid oblivions
Lady Promethea, your gaze was God
Desire like a rose eternity
Rose in me
suburban America burning dust in daylight slums
build your evening pyres it was desire like a raving Maenad
the brilliant dying of the light it was desire
sheathing of the knives of the night it was desire
god in tripartite it was desire living like moonlight
Locust feasts berserker of eternity—
the stillness before the killing
and I witnessed—
Desire burned like devastation in me
Desire like a death to me
The Rapture!
nor could it forget me
I dissociated into Ice Eternity
with an enslavers ring
And I forgot I was there for a reason
You had the wrath of charging bulls
and the tarnishment of angels
I couldn’t stay, sowing wounds
it was desire
shackled by the blades of daylight
Cardamom coffee at Home
You had the fragility of desire
parenthesis the breath of life
who can escape!
the intoxicating darkness
the murmur of earthquakes
the fragility—she was a fragile thing
writhing in The Confusion
The Rapture! it lived on
beyond the slow stabs of darkness
the saffron waters of Babylon burned everything
an invasion flamed my veins
noble and improbable light it was desire
will you endure Heaven’s obliteration
it was desire
in a Garden of Annihilation
remembering the miracles
I panicked
THE GOD GRAZES ON
AND I SOUGHT—
desire like chained eternities
You had the winged defiance of light
Madonna of the feral sibylline seas
Madonna I heard the far things screaming
Madonna I worshipped liberty
Your Name rose from the heaving carapace of the Earth
Madonna of the Anguish I Chose
You had the warmth of eternal summer’s dark waves
The mountains were moons and I was gone
requiem for the horned bulls of Babylon
waking the blades of daylight
it was desire, wasn’t it?
and I desired that it would sentence me to freedom
the tyranny!
by the wanting rosewastes of Babylon I was gone
I was gone

Revelation

The miracles are incessant
We were creatures of the dandelion Earth
stranded skyward like stars ineluctable and far
there were Revelations razing the arms of Mount Sinai
THE EATING DECADENCE
even the mountains were wounded
it was mute purgatory
in debauched Dawn’s red peaks I was dreaming
all the meadows were pavement
Midsummer thunder was a shrine of black tides
marauding darkness
artifact of all that I wanted
the heartbreak!
moth husks it was half ash half hushed light
we bore wounds from sunrises pulsing
like the punctured murmurs of dreams
A hidden thing I was forever on the run
entropy I sought the grandeur of God that I had forgotten
soundless snowfield of Oblivion
I was sinking with the missile moons
To Lot’s wife even pillars of salt seemed epiphanies of starlight
burning oasis I was taken
by the radiance of delight
Oh god the darkness
I must once again
leave everything behind
wingless flight it was Desire like a cemetery
and I had a destiny for vanishing

The Poison Hours

Ruin by the riverside
If it was astonishment it had to be light
It was golden photosynthesis
It was the Fire that Witnessed
I was sinking in murder summer tell the vision it was fire in a crisis
IT WAS DESIRE I WITNESSED
Fires on the sutures of the horizon
Fire in a crisis
AND IT RISES
Lily of oblivion
Vengeful and brutal oblivion as the black gorging stars
liturgical smoke of silver and salt
with the delivering fire of catastrophe
burning summer fissured in aimless afternoons
A revenant with the fragility of clouded daydreams
you had the violence of heavens
and the piety of the noontides
It was golden photosynthesis
and I witnessed—
The splintering of the light
Ruin by the riverside
I was sentenced in Time
They will die by the lasso of the night ! and you will rise!
Anabasis once I was like white silence in the stars ashes
yes I will be yours in the pleasures of the nights
there was a smoke ring circumscribing the moon it was desire
god get me out it was a VOID like a wolf’s bloody mouth
the west was a fragile virgin wet with light
you had the drowsiness of firesides
incarnadine dawn I escalated to collapse
Under siege by summer sky winds
I listened to the yapping of black yew trees
Out of the orphaned reaching dark
I was abducted to the cold auroras
lightning’s limbs in waning dawns
I wanted anesthesia on the steppes of Heaven
the greed! the reverence!
yes I spent too much time in the wind
I was an anemone chained to the architectonic deep
fleeing the burning cities
and I witnessed
the footprints of fire
summers ritual sacrifice of April’s knife light
lament of the slaughtered it was desire
I died in the bestiary of the chrysalis nights
You had the clarity of winter sunrises
heaving Earth home to every gilded infinity I fell in
I was naked and dissatisfied even with the dark revelations of the abyss
collapsing like the bare and naked Messiah
Behold the forge moons
and the dahlias with their wilted defiance
Beneath the Ash of Elysium
Heaven was seething madness anyway
You had me unveiled like the entrails of a lily
those hills of ichor and petrichor were singing
absent Regained Paradise
there were masses of jurassic darkness
that was July’s last judgment
and now September screams in shadow sears before us
seize the fire salamander seas
light was your edifice
the engulfing gods I sought
heaven’s dark theater Discord
ragdoll of the incantatory dark
I wanted a cavern dark enough for angels
anemone chained to the architectonic deep
oh entanglements! it was grand wasn’t it
oh god the golden shore of sky the magnificent dark mountains the moonlight
like an axe at my neck! it was grand wasn’t it
the brutality of desolation’s shore
Darkness arrived in Decibels
evanescent Devotion like a chokehold from sacral heaven I was bound in
as the vengeant angels we were astonished by the light
Gold Ichor petrichor
Chrysalis in the equinox tomb
behold the Fishingline Forge moon
we were ensnared by the flashing dawns
in the agony of ages I sought the beauty of being a perfect creation
you had me unveiled like the entrails of a lily
Fire of Isis I witnessed another existence
belladonna wastes extinction in dark plains
our resurrected dreams were defenseless
all the miracles were vanquished
basalt meadows granite nights
we were the descendants of every surviving fire
Devotion like a promontory
Ruin by the riverside
If it was astonishment it had to be light
The Revelation! of the Sacred!
evening’s covenant
give up your dark allegiances
give up your everlasting radiance
Dahlia of the death meadows
soothing wounds from the thorn roses of the voiceless ocean
Endure Heaven’s propagating fever—
Endure the furious and brutal suns—
These were the verdicts of grave paradise like verdicts of desire
the sinking griefs red and receding into Eternity
Fallen daughters of eve an infinity of griefs
belladonna with dark abandon
wandering the Dreaming dead wastes
nocturnal black winds Butcher of the night
you vanquished the miracles
stillness upon the lightning seas
Welcome to the raw apocalypse
unredeemed Mary Magdalene
That Darkness is no Door
This is the Rapture you waited for
ancient ardor the sunset was a raiment of distant fire
The magnification!
Everlasting dark radiance
I stood beneath a sabotage of clouds like a veil of Isis
and I witnessed straying darkness beyond lidded moonlight
Sublime fire of the sunken centuries
We were deep in yearning
You had the desolation of dawn meadows
and I was so in love!
Zephyrs in pyramids of light
it was desire
like sheared armaments of violent Heaven
a sabotage of clouds breeding darkness
summer was burning sepulcher dust
and I witnessed—

Prophecy in the Thunder

I inhaled the blanched stars
water lights of radiant darkness
like the vermillion thread of the wounded burning ones I was coming undone
seraphim the glass of God burns
seraphim of camphor clouds I was unearthed
incarnadine dawn—I escalated to collapse

Equinox

Luminous web of slipping time
I was sinking in the silos of summer
deadly ironic grandeur like an aftershock I went after
Violet equinox
in the spring I was becoming a god
Time was a white circlet
vanishing into world ash
fire on the bridges of locusts peeling
back the nervous eyelids of night
gypsum in the heat I wanted to die
You had the stupor of dawns
and I was forgotten
dreaming of transfigurations
lucent heaven wheezed by
barbed lightning I was beheaded
dreaming of flaming orchards in the palisades
forge of the comets
cast me in your devoted nets
Heaven’s dark theater and the discord went on
The evenings were shrinking
the gorge of the sea was Gatsby green
and I was dreaming of lightning in the palisades
Camphor flame on the cusp of clouds
Thought I saw cherubs in the orchard dust
the radiance!
like a reverie of high winds

Orpheus Eve

I walked towards gravitational collapse
The merciful commandments of May were ash
I couldn’t snap out of the compulsions
It was umbral undergrowth
and the hours were glowing
what a superficial terror
summers brutal azure furnace
The liquid tides of Lethe were quiescent
Ecstasy was breathless creation
Exultant eating of flesh
in the ecstatic sinews of night
You had the patience of graves
All the moves were mistakes
glory transfigured by glory
You had the sordid nobility of suicides
The last perpetual future arriving
Speak the euphoric language of angels
Into the ineffable wilderness
God of the lousy miraculous
You were a vanishing thing of Time
Before the bare blackness of naked dawn
the bluebird hills of twilight went twittering on
Orpheus of the darkness saw
we were orphaned by the farthest darkness
in a whirlpool of languid nights
in the Reverence of the Evenings I vanished
immanent spring
I fear I was witnessing
the dark boughs of December
crushed by the ineluctable burning
effervescent fire in the shrine of light limbs
you had the private pride of dandelions in the wind
Confront one final obdurate terror
Vanitas take the vain ambrosia of the gods
frail and scintillating
God was giggling
you were not yet forgotten
nor were you forgiven
and I witnessed—
Sibyl of the red floods
Sibyl of the dust
The scalded stars and their wounded miraculous fury
A broken World from the gorge of Christ and the limbs of light
I endured the accusation and the anguish of starlight
the sunken chalice of the sun resuscitated into reality
before the dark doorsill of night
I dreamt of delight I cried out your name into the liquid light
detritus of the virgin snowfields
detritus of the dark trees
Breathless euphoria do not desert me
I want the crushing of the dark
Aloneness would doom you
Devotion like a sunken relic of the riverside
I drowned in the cruel stillness of streetlights
on the ephemeral Earth
thunder cracked over dark grasses
fissures from lethal heaven
prophet of cold moons you were rooted like the smoking mountains
sinking season heaven was barren in the divine and pregnant night
you had the sacrality of the simulacrum of light
sodden and drowning in radiator cold moons
porous Oblivion do not diminish me
even the angels were moaning
my Seraph you had the fragility of lucid dawns
beneath the conflagration of branches
into the immaculate dark I wandered on
how many black dawns will betray you?
the radiance! like a killing spring!
Paralysis in night’s bestiary
in the eyes of a God we burn our fires
Flaming wasteland this is the late apocalypse
you are not forgiven and you are not forgotten

Catastrophe

Wisely on the margins I surrendered
it was the season of summer sinking and I fell in
it was a season I had to survive to get to
washed into catastrophe fall the blessings were limited
did I outlast the depredations
the wings were weightless
I was feral and on the edge of ruins

Axis Mundi

I dream of the gaudiness of heaven
Axing of yet another spring sprung
Sunset was a manuscript of burning
the clouds were carbon
I endured the orgiastic light
from the stabs of streetlamps
a dream rising out of the night visage
I listened to the vestiges of oblivion
they were hollow wombs we were cornered in
like the drowning pall of dawns we went slumbering on
it was a lasting road
cascading helplessness
catapulting around the sun!
with that shapeshifter silence
and the silence was Noise
you were the luminous white fire
at the shrinking horizon
order of the forgetting hours
piety the Fall of Rome was vermillion
Leviathan of a diffusive universe
God forgot the world in The Confusion
the cacophony!
I wanted Atlas holding the World Entire for me
mercurial like summer sunsets
river of Lethe Oblivion’s memory I would
Make a weapon of forgetting
Piety I was chained in summer darkness
I spent empires in exile thinking I was free
I had forgotten the commandments of may
but they had not forgotten me
April Oblivions could not be further
but I felt the burning
the cacophony! rising in my ribs
and I witnessed—

Fusion

Siren lights at the shore
Sealed day and night into numbness
Like a god of the black pines
Pierced by the blades of night
Thin wings of moths as mist crackling
With September soon arriving
I was frightened
Pallid dawns the limpid moon must have wandered far
Everything was irresolvable
a nameless madness with the violence of wasting waves
Boundless immensities
Life is a distorted lattice I dwelt among primal things
Rise shine and sever
It was lachrymose evening
The bone world and its ocean fogs
Baptized by rising tides
Like gathering vastnesses of the sea I tried to hide
That dark and late genesis was outlasting me
Born Back to Dark Ages / Late Genesis / The Severing / from the Eternal Bait of Eve
Who would choose the peace of paradise
Who would choose to grieve
wasting Carcass of Paradise
the light tried to die for you

The Severing

Dark and late Genesis outlasting the springs
I wanted you haunting me
The extravagancy!
I was a divine thing felled
Chaosmosis reality couldn't touch us
Desire was an ecstatic crucifix
Thought it was darkness but it was liquid
Summer summoned me
There was a void to complete
It was like eternal torment to me
And I was in compliance
Even the lifeless lamb was burgeoning decay
And I wanted
And I wanted
And I wasted away
Grappling with dawn
I wandered those wilds
and then I went wandering on

Entrapment

Angels with their dark blue attendants carrying revelation
Clarity I scrambled for the abundances in the ash
radiance and ruin
who can survive the shifting of the light?
I dreamt the devastations were killing us with desire
that the dead were baked by dark cradles of delight
And I was frightened
Ancestry was dark magic
it was the fire that called this time
And I panicked
Earths breathing appendages
variegated and rioting
Basilica of pressed eyelids
Like a crucifix of Oedipus
That Revenant River had its ribs in me
It was desire I was living
And desire I was killing
Machinery of night the birch was burning like a torch all eve I was witnessing
In the yoke of the horrors
And yes I wanted more for the yawning years
The cold morning hours arose in rioting floods of smoke
And I wanted to know
and I wanted to know
Bound in the knife mornings
A yoke like hemlock blood
I was in the epochs of the dead
the spring the splendour
the summer
Eruption
The Earth Feasts in Sieges of Sunlight
We were on the edge of things
There was wind in the Gutter of night
I wanted in with the epochs of the dead the world was erupting fire in an aria of light I wanted death possessing me like the yoke of the morning
Unwinding the Noose of the eve
That darkness was baiting me
And I witnessed
Like a godless thing
death was chattering on the worlds rim
I was Unfurling
Rebellious earth alchemized
I think it was mercury
Death was speaking in its arias of light
At the worlds end
Creation I wanted it
Creation I was deathless
In the glowing hours
Desire was a crucifix
The earth possessed me
We were on the edge of peripheries
I was competitive with death
It shattered my soul
How I wanted to know if the springs would quake upon us in the mercury of summer
I was through and through I spent doomed twilights in aprils to die here I was through and through not the cruelty of spring in summerfire
There was salt in the shrinking horizons
I was subterranean
In the Wasting carcasses of the nights
Chained to darkness
Like I was a far thing witnessing salted oblivion
Always Worship the wasted carcass
Eternity was (under) us
To evoke anything was to tarnish its invisible grace

The Fire Scriptures

Captured by catastrophe
the brutality was like a chorus of slaves under the belt
the brutality a polyphony of lives I wanted to forget
before the devastations I decreated
yes I suppered in the silver skies
that darkness was nacreous and wise
Madonna of the selves that died
I suppered in the silver skies
Good morning sunshine, I said to the sepulcher
dispossessed of Dawn
I walked those wilds and then I wandered on
Desire spinning like a liquidating eternity
Desire like golden ruin upon the famished earth to me
I fear it was rolling on
in love with the glowing hours I could have sworn they belonged to me
at the funeral of the stars I anointed you
crisis consecrated you
Then I realized it was drowning oblivion we were sifting through
The death fires danced at night
My fever was rising
Eve of orchid wounds
We were blood carrion soon
In the chapel of The Starved
It was meandering dark
Exodus of orchid wounds
I was through and through
Dispossessed of dawn I walked those wilds and then I wandered on
You were roving with vultures
You had the strangeness of catastrophe
It was a dark and late Genesis outlasting the springs
The sky found us soundless
Exodus of orchid wounds
It was barren land
Everything was moribund
We were shrinking time
Madonna of the shivering eternities
THE AFTERSHOCKS OF DAMNATION
I burned with dusk
Moribund in time
I was sure we had been forgotten
Madonna of the shivering eternities
The devastation of Hiroshima came from the deeps
My waning life it was the wreckage of angels we were entangled in
Like the flooding world I had no origins
The serpent was salvation
I feared erasure and I feared creation
The horizons were shrinking
I declared you a jewel from the Green Gorge of the sea
Even the familiar was spectral to me
I do not know if I wanted only in a fragile way
Both the wolf in the woods and the lifeless lamb were burgeoning decay

Endurance

Every ravishing eternity
I wrestled with That Angel Antiquity of Fire living like light in my ribs
High on the liquor of moonlight
Into the god grave I was riding fire
In august heat I dreamt the wild violences of winter were plundering me
the predation of grief
Desire was a liquidating eternity
All my splitting selves unraveled in front of me
Dispossession
I delighted in the disappearance of drifting paradise
and I was exiled twice
And I was exiled twice
Yes I came back with the weightlessness of light
couldn't you go with the November moons?
the untethered wings of the wind unwinded into monsoons
Burning blue with the summerfire
The universes Adamantine
You reminded of them
Desire was wild magic to me
I was an ornament of the earth going under the stillness of summer minutes
and I witnessed
I was in the atrium of burning blue
in the Skein of Summer
godless and grand
acquiring ruination for you!
I was a disciple of fire
Eternity that harbinger of light
in the vaults of solitude I wanted to die
I savored the mysteries asylum of fire in the falling darkness the ordeals would be over soon for a moment we were tombless moons and then the deepening trees met us the dead like umbral shadows I was bruised by evenings leaving me and yes I was vanishing these were violations of immensity
you had me like an emperor of darkness falling for eternity
phantom wings like limbs of light
in the womb of God I tried to hide
You had the wilderness of seas
Mauled by the silken trim of lightning
the darkling stars had my appetites
it was desire living like light
Resurrected Ariel on the shore
I made Communion with cold moons
desire what a feeble flame to live for
I was a fugitive of daylight for it
Madonna of the polyphony of selves I ended
I suppered in the silver skies
Good morning sunshine, I said to the sepulcher
Desire was spinning like liquidating eternity
Dispossessed of Dawn
I walked the wilds and then I wandered on
gathering vastness for a famished eternity
I was in love with the glowing hours they belonged to me
the devastation of Hiroshima came from the deeps
every summer I wanted like a haunted thing
Eternity that harbinger of light
Madonna of the shattered visages of Eternity
Black wasting dawn
Who will bait the biting god
Who will abandon the grace
Bereaved in a cavern of dreams
I was a native to Eternity
and I thought the wild world had forgotten me
Like a wrecked thing in the wastes of Babylon
Magdalena of the moths
do your holy work of desolation
Appetite like a death drive
it was a gilded eternity in the wilderness
and I witnessed
the Testament of the Earth
darkness was a prelapsarian garden
the stars were seething with my petitions
Harvesting evening light
This is the Testament of Flesh
I wanted to forget
the dark day star
catastrophe and void
Flesh eating wasps on meadow grasses
to the dark day star
I confessed
Through ruin and rain
Evangelion of eternity
Cold fox eyes like searchlights
Oedipus I was eclipsed by the eyes of Witness
Annihilation in night like oblivion eternity
I counted the eves before I died like an accountant of dreams
Summer going to the stone tombs
Annihilation in the night I wish I had died
Zion they were scriptures of nightfall calling
Ecstasy an Epitaph for the sainted night
The sacred abundances the delight
Flesh of the world wound
You Crusader of chained cities
Had me Burning Troy like a god consuming cities
That predator anarchy
All my memories go mute at midnight
You were like ice that survived the first ages
From the hesitating wastes
Wanting Emancipation your blood was like a barbiturate
I was a storm light sacrament of the shifting winds
Madonna of the saintly trinity fires
Madonna of the golden nooses
Flesh Redeemer
disciple of daylight Revelations
Tell the Titan of Eastern Dawn
that I wanted—
and I wandered on—
God the sun gypsy scattered his graces
Madonna of the Golden Nooses
Madonna like a Sin You Choose
Madonna of the reveling Meteors
Madonna like a reverie beckoning
Weightless like a tempests of fire
It was desire
Madonna of the shivering veils
The grandeur of God
A revelation I had forgotten
Doubt that the stars are fire
Doubt the storms of God were dying
That dark oceanliner of Eternity
Carrying an infinity of griefs
Madonna of the vacancies
Resurrection roses of Jericho
I was a wasting thing
Madonna wherefore
Madonna whatamI
Madonna of what I witnessed
In august heat I dreamt of predation
By the wild violences of winter
Yes the soundless were slaughtered
in a killing spring of starlight
Summer was a season of brutalities
Gilded God of fire—
gilded God of furnaces—
I heard the wrath of angels
That Horizon of Heaven waging war
God of the furnaces of Creation
It was irradiated starlight like sprawling dark
In the summerfire of revelation
Like the warmth of a summer thunderstorm
The golden gypsy of the Sun
Her bones were Dark Floating bodies of ash
Mountain peaks of the irradiated starless dark
And I needed your light inside of me
Moonbeams on the moors
Existence was a spring I was drinking
Dozing like a coward in the deeps
Despair tore a ravine
unburdened by burning dusk
you vanished like hour hands
tarnishing in light
It was Requiem for the lion not the lamb expiring
Imprisoned in Veiled Paradise
Seraph of the seasons incarnating stars
Halcyon thing I was desire decaying or desire awakening
Ushering the unborn light of meteors
Desire lived an eternity in me
Shrinking from the drifting winds
and I was exiled twice
And I was exiled twice
Yes I came back with the weightlessness of light
Felled eternity was like a mistress of dissolving light
Forgotten godhead
The Workmanship of your calamities
The Workmanship of your starlit evenings
gaining darkness like an armament
despair made me selfish
deep in the lidded entrails of the earth
The workmanship!
I witnessed!
what a vision murmuring I am alive as the flame of the burning shores
I saw that devastation as an arc of light and I sought it fiendishly
the burning shores murmuring I am alive I am divine
Calypso of the frigid eternities
I was shut in the tomb of my life
vacant black waters from the captive Earth like stigmata in my palms
Siren of the black Albion cliffs and I witnessed—
waterbirds drawing dawn’s dark catacombs
seasons of fire!
I was extinguished
The miracles were killing me
All the stars were radiant lacunae
The universe was ending there was annihilation on the horizon
I didn't care the stars were graves first
Like the singularity I was without origins
And then that event horizon rushed on towards us

The Ordeals

the wonderment! the rapture! the delight! that day darkness wandered into night! it was a horizon of fire atonement there were cold tombs in the moons like voids you choose no more of this life a moth died behind the glass of Being and yes the tarnished wings of white oblivion were whispering to me the barbaric terrors encroaching and all my dreams were far things! I vanished into a cloister of silences the ugliness of my life began to overtake everything. an infinity of griefs I am weak and depleted.

Spiral of fire whatami and whereami I let myself be shattered and suddenly in echoing eternity it killed me it killed me suddenly in echoing eternity it unearthed me like a draught of Lethe desperation shattered me into graces it was white oblivion written in the conflagrations like idle starlight in the churning gut of summer I went under Time like a gravity of Waste and I chased it I know I loved because I suffocated in the shivering night winds Eros the despotic hunted me eve through eve for eternity