The clouds were guessing me you were impossible to please yes even that void was a peace to me perhaps dying was too easy Greed I pretended it was wisdom descent into transcendence mired in disquiet even I wanted to kill us it was radiance I wanted it was radiance I had forgotten the universe I fear it did not hear us it was a fervent eternity that I lost to the seasons and there was I witnessing I gave up on the world so the world gave up on me freedom there was eminence in dying peace it resisted me war would it end us before I surrendered wanting you was haunting me I wanted to bury the past but I fear it remembered us Time bore witness that violence was behind us it was rapture that I sought existence was exhausting desire burned like devastation within me I DREAMT OF DELIGHT I CRIED OUT YOUR NAME INTO THE LIQUID LIGHT