That Holy Devastation

People were always mistaking me. Writing became a way to make my selfhood more precise.

We could annihilate riches of Summertime it was golden to me when desire exploded us into the fields of dreams desire orchestrated me into delight like a field of time summertime murmurings of a fever from the starlings wings forming labyrinths in the skies I feared the need of you would execute me I cared for nothing else smokestacks in the pastures of heaven we burned with that holy devastation desire 

I was a paradox like a fragile lion at the gates of Rome it was desire that made us a home a ballad from that bard of night desire like a jagged hammer the chambers of Eternity looked deserted to me desire like a barge through the leviathans of the darkness and it changed me I needed the courage of a convict the carnage was not our choice but we could share in its devastations it was Creation not sustaining life and I was wise to it

Existence was a shallow grave in Eternity I was the mirrored dinner of a deity yes I felt a silver filigreed knife sweeping under me like a feast of the dark bladed things living inside my limbs I wanted a release into heavens ecstasies it was a summertime routine to fall into luminous annihilation in likeness of that void eternity that slept under me then I was doing it again a lover as an assassin it was obsession that possessed me a dream of the moon and sun falling from the chambers of the summertime it was ecstasy to watch the seasons shift without slumbering me like a lover I was on my knees I was a sacrament witnessing as the brutality lay waste to me in the summer eves and do not think I was displeased with that eternity of pain it was a cacophony that sacralized me in the Adamantine armature of heaven

I was like a saint of the cathedrals of Time desire got me stranded in submission to the will of the planets the secret history feared me I had a pen and a cataloguing of all the things in existence I desired the devastation either way we were sentenced the flesh would get rid of us my quest for eternity was freeing everything seemed too easy in infinity I wasted the devastations we needed reason or we were done carrions of delight I dreamed the cares disappeared like limbs in the light noons during summerfire season it was a particular sort of chaos that needed us the limbs of a lover lavishing me it was golden how all of that destroyed me I loved to be devoted to annihilating I needed a lover for each of eternity's rooms eternity like a heel of Achilles fleeing the terrors he could not surrender it was an eternity of existences that slept under me like a dragon hoarding gold it was exquisite a chalice of life like golden liquid that Midas kissed that is why we were burning in the golden fire fields of atrocity desire was exquisite and I lived in its gilded fragmentations it was desire that rose like devastation I revolted at the governance of Heaven I witnessed the brimming dishes of God I was forgotten it was desire wasn't it dishing devastation like a dinner for dogs

Desire like a wilderness Desire a destiny for dust and I willed it the feast was eternity and yes I desired that it would kill me thefted bounty of beauty burning through you like eternity it was a feast of need the light was an architect of dream-mares we were drifting through the corridors of Time like mutineers of history in the muteness of afternoon seas we were dreaming in summertime there were fire clouds in the avalanches of the dark and yes I panicked I had a destiny for dust why would I survive that panic architecture  it had my name like a heartbeat speaking to the burning feast it was golden to me to be a spectacle of shattering it was desire and I lived in it dust to dust the wilderness descended on us dusk to dusk the wilderness respected our rewilding and I fear It was a spectacle of shattering that disarmed me like an unexpected mirror that opened under me like a spring that Narcissus fell in it was desire and I lived it it was like releasing of feathers into eternity so the fine floating things would remember me the shore of the universe did not impress it was a fable to me history in reverse like a book of the dead it told of endings become beginnings I was god  vapor storm in the smokestacks when Time that assassin resurrected the agonies the darkness flooded in ruin the great works of existence at risk of ruin and we missed the arkship we heard the choirs of the whispering voids it was religious to bury those witnesses it was exquisite to see the assassins of time execute the survival of the fittest the smokestacks were burning like thorns of roses in agony from the beautiful blades of infinity  

It was desire and I couldn't get enough it was desire that surrendered me to eternity waves of ruin and we missed the arkship the fireflies of the summer nights were smokestacks in the blackness the choirs of angels were whispering voids the cracks of light were singing resplendently like blessings from heaven’s rim heaven was a void and I fell in its sublime summers the last supper was burning and I learned from the brutality of the flames crackling dawn a storm rising in the rosebud beheadings 

The night was dissolving like a spirit of dreams you inherited innocence it was existence wasn’t it? The stars were engines sputtering my despair had velocity even I couldn't care for me it was destiny that the dance troupe of angels desired me it was gigantic like the stars on the late summer noons Eternity said I was missing I said well aren't you just a void or two? The stage collapsed I was choreographing my doom crucified into Time Heaven was a void I fell in the vacancies of astonishment and yes gods grip on me was unwinding the voltage of the stars illuminated the tragedy it was cruel wasn't it? Untethered from the the rope of heaven while the suns were setting on our dreams like a shadow-spirit desire was bombardment on the barges of heaven despair in a destiny and you can bet I wanted it to finish me it was chaos I was stranded in like a star field of desire Gods grip on me was unwinding me and then I sank into the dead territories of dreaming

Dusk with a firmament that I drifted in like a knife in my limbs I was traumatized into submission to the sky numinous dawn asphyxiated me the angels were in my company and yes I witnessed the untethering from heaven it felt like freedom falling in the pastures of planets and I was stranded on that land heaven facing the angels armies it was cruel wasn't it? Warchief of the Adamantine existences it was exquisite wasn't it? I kneeled into twilight it was desire that needed my submission and I was getting grander I wanted more of the exquisite existences it was necessary to witness that greed and call it necessary eternity felling me like a firefall of Yosemite in my arms I was burning with desire it was desire I buried in a warchief met warring me and was intimidated it was desire wasn't it that gave me haloes like rolling fields of gold warchief I wanted more I was sentenced to light it was desire that annihilated us into oblivion the fire fields of incarceration and I wanted the devastations