All the lives I never lived tripping me up
I spent the summers disappearing daylight in eves
Summer light fire dreaming me up
Heading down the vapor roads as a god of the wilderness
Dreaming of your wild eyes gaze
Late twenties I guess I was supposed to have things together
But I was even more untethered than when I was younger
Maybe I was lacking agency
I was waiting for someone to do something for me
Blades of the moon
I was tired of forgiving
I was sure the world was ending soon
Every year living became harder
Running on the meadows of the moon
Like I was its martyr
Like I was its daughter
I was sure the world was ending soon
Bladed moon grasses swinging in the rain
I was running like sheep in a wolf’s chase
The gods were scared of us
They couldn't find us
On the gardens of the moon
We were going home going home going home soon
Golden apples in a Hesperides grove
I was regretting all the things I chose
Inside that chrysalis of existence
And it was killing me
It was killing me like lonely summer eves
I was a hierophant of the dark seas
And I felt those seas getting up under me
I was a hierophant of the dusks
Like annunciation but it was us
What a configuration it was everlasting eternity
Those seas of eternity were getting up under me
We were cataloguing solitudes as if we were meant for greater things
Everlasting the dark seas were deadlines
Hierophant of the everlasting seas
You were the entire earth to me
What a crime and what a punishment
Drowning in the dreamscapes of existence
The seas were everlasting punishment to me
And it was martyr season
The universe was Adamantine
Desire sentenced itself
Then it sentenced me
Reminding me of the summer seas
Drowning me in summerfire deeps
Desire like a summertime
I desired that it felled me
Into the universes Adamantine
I was a descendant of the seas ribbons of fire
Everlasting the dark seas were deadlines
Nets of creation we were salvaging the wastes
All the glamours were castles of air
Darling of the devastations
The earth made us martyrs
Although I was its dutiful daughter
Everlasting seas
The earth couldn't be outlasting me
Desire was a sinking in the eternal seas
And I was surfacing like a siren from the summerfire deeps
Firewood soul
You contained all the polarities
I wouldn't let them bury me
You were my shipmate on an estranging sea
Another one of those summertime infinities
I was dying like a descendant of Desire
That estranging sea
I remembered your beatific gaze
Cataloguing the solitudes
Firewood soul I was eternity
The centaurs of Time weren’t running fast enough for me
Hostage of the night roads
I was migrating to Inferno