Time the destroyer
Weaponized me into wings
I witnessed
The mark of the beast
In the earth’s fortress-forest
I was in the Nowheres
Like a reservoir of standing lakes
Existence was a fleeting threshold on the slopes of Heaven
I fell in the fountainhead of the divine
It killed me it killed me
Divided into the fragments of an angel
I was lamenting for the ages that made us into graves
Like a revenant hiding from the killing fields of sunlight
I stood on the promontory
To witness the handiworks of diviner things
Your ambition
Lulled me to sleep
The gods were listening
We could disinherit the sepulcher of the ages
From sentencing us to stillness
Three wise men running after me
How delectable it was to end it all
With prodigal waste filling my days
Three wise men witnessing me like lovers in rapture
And, let's face it, I needed
To be an object of desire
Starlight as white as ivory from mammoth tusks *
And yes I fear extinction was coming for us
Watchman of devastation-dawn
The Eternal War of being was on
Released like dandelion dust
Into the sweeping existences
And I fear I needed
Everything
For a time I had the ego of a city-state god
A minor deity in the cosmologies
Still I witnessed
Smoking comets of starfire
Twinkling like desire to me
Dying was a promise, wasn't it?
Bonfire of the vanities
The sky was a swampfire of the marshes
I was the bard of a giggling god
Starstorms from the catastrophes
Had me laughing on my knees
I don’t know what I want from life
Maybe dying on the boulevards
Of suffering
Like a prophetess of pain
I witnessed the end of the universe like a god-kiss
Shattering ecstasy
The armed forces of Eden were flashes of a golden prophet
I was vanishing into the vanities
At the summers meridian
Strange fruit on the lattices of trees
Bombarded in the fortress-forest
By legions of the armed forces of Eden
I guarded the language of the angels like a golden prophet
An angel of the periphery
The Milky Way was a widow-maker
I was the baroque of Babylon
Desire that laboratory of fire
The spectators watched me like I was an angel of the devastation
Widow-makers of the milky wars
Flooded with enchantment
I wanted all the worlds to end
The moon like a radiator streaming from the trees
And the severed ends of eternity witnessed me
Imitating their immensity
I sought more monuments like the deity of a city-state
Carnival of lucent terrors
There were firelights in those marshes
We the unredeemed and I needed I needed I needed
One thousand doors of the universe closing in
I had a relationship with the fault lines of existence
My vengeance foe from the fogs of the unknown
Late-twenties like a grave of fireflies
and I wanted to die! **
Too much taken, too much borrowing of the light
You were life like desire to me
My midnight languages
Like [torn] effigies of the angel language
And I desired
Soliloquies of light
It was remarkable savagery
How you wanted me
Heaved from heaven
You were Desire to me
And contrary to reason
I desired the water lights of the existence
Like a riddling sphinx
Contrary to wisdom
I hoped the cornucopia of life would kill us
Savage of the badlands
The fragility deserted me
While I was an idyll of the king
You were sinking on those slopes of Heaven
And I chose
Myself
The Eternal War of Being was killing wisdom
Atonement for unholy angels
Oh the armed forces of Eden
In legions
Were witnessing me
The uprising of reason
I wanted eternity in a season shattering me to completion
It was a need to be seen
In invisibility
Like Juliet I wanted your family
Floating in submarines under the oceans
Reason was a season that I left for greater eternities
Sunless seas sinking me in the summers of the twenties
The sunless seas swallowing me like sunken eternities
And I wanted them screaming about having witnessed me
Desire twinkling in the twilights
And I wanted those armies of heaven releasing me
And I wanted your family floating like a submarine under the seas
We were Romeo and Juliet
In the pupils of a disaster
Existence was a madhouse of oblivion
Carnival of terrors
And I stared into the black pupils of god
I was a collapsing star on the badlands of heaven
My veins injected with the golden arteries of a deity
The Eternal War of being and I was the chief
Existence was a lunch at the roadside picnic and I was sick of it
And I experienced begotten eternity as a punishment of dust
Arise watchman
Like a lullaby of light
At the world’s end
I was flayed as a snowbird in the spring
An impostor of light
Pines in the fortress-forest
The universe was a brimming gift
Desire was living in me as divine punishment
I was running into the Sunken
Like I was in the submarine of your family
The feast of existence
I tended like a blooming fire-garden of God
And I sought—
The jeweled of existence was a mirage
My silver life was actually asphalt **
And I was Lady Lacrimose
Parnassus of the waxing dark
Those bombarding armies of angels wanted to bestow wisdom on me
It was ecstasy like winter witnessing tulips in the Vienna spring
When I witnessed the end of all things
Had me laughing on my knees
That devastation was advancing
I wanted that verdure torturing me for a time but it was an Eternal Severing
All the snaking things in the god-garden of paradise
Taught me wisdom
And I heard the legions of Heaven
Like music of the universe from the flute of Pan
Surging soliloquies of light and I panicked—
The universe was an aged phoenix transmuting from flames
and I waited—
Like crystal chandeliers when I crashed into glassed Devastation
I shattered into light
Captain Bluebeard’s wives under the sea
With the sunken Leviathan
Cannon into the fire-seas
And I was sure Captain Bluebeard
Advanced
Towards
Me
Flaming arrows from winged Hermes
Dragged into acres of Heaven by cherubim
You brought a knife to a firefight
and I was burning as the friar’s lantern
You were a floating criminal like Bluebeard on a barge
Maybe it was the mark of a beast
Witnessing me all summerfire season
Decaying was a station of life
and I survived— I survived —
In fragments of light
Revelation in the firetides of Heaven
and I died — I died —
It was the twenty-first century
Let’s face, the Leviathan was a Machine
Like scribes we could attest to the annihilations
Or let them dance with us
I witnessed the devastations like an artist of the stage
The faeries of a midsummer’s night dream found me one summerfire season
I was slumbering in the gilded silences of infinity
When fire achilles leapt through the seasons
East of Eden
You were a golden boy
and I sought
Even golder things
A mutiny of silences
And Bluebeard was my bride-to-be
I weaponized grief
Surely twenty-eight seasons is too
Soon to be sentenced to the fire-seas
Exiled for saying the eternities wasted us
Exiled for saying we wasted the abundances
I was as homeless as the furnished can be
It was Maslow’s Hierarchy
I WANTED THE ETERNITIES
LUSTING FOR ME
We would return to dust in the god-grave
(Or say they say!)
Fires on the fairgrounds
Like Sisyphus I was guarding the punishment
A chained slave on the fire-seas
I dissent— I dissent
Emperor of gladness
I wanted among the vanishings
The cauldron of [circumstance] like the flaming wings of an aged phoenix
And I waited
For that devastation to forge light
Sidewalks sinking under La Brea tar
Yes I walked with the stars in orchards of light
You were beheading flowers
Like a Prospero of transcendence
And I witnessed the polyphonies like afflictions of flaming light
Existence a punishment from the divinities
The mania of desire had me rolling in those fire-fields
Like a gyspy from the gardens of Babylon
I was immortal as a demiurge
Life was an effigy of eternity
I borrowed blood from the godhead
And I witnessed that eternity like an immortal
In Ecstasy
Morning arising like a coffin
I was a songbird shacked
And it was a massive fortune
Insatiable for the riche
Desire hypnotized with
Its burning solaces of grace
The fragility was a wasteland of grace
And I made it my territory
Felled trees of eternity
Hypnotized me like Piranesi in the mazes
That labyrinth of desire
I was wasted by the adornments of the sun
Lifted from the mares of darkness
Into promenades of light as if we were heirs of fire
World History like twisting sinews of Ariadne’s threads
And I witnessed those
Hectares of night
Releasing me into devastation
Barricade of the days
I descended into vacancies
Beauty is the highest form of being
We were beached whales
Advancing to devastation
The witnessing
Of auguries
Was clapping thunder to me
It burned like
Devastating desire
I killed my selves for light
Iceberg caves of ice
And I hid
Like a midnight dew mariner
A hyperborean on heaven’s rim
We were stirring eddies of dust
And the eternities were rippling
Derangement in summers gleaming Scarface
And I needed —
The moon was a radiator in the colds of Nox
Like a fortress-forest of the dark
And I was far from my dreams
Witnessing those orbiting suns of Solaris
When the devastation embraced me
Three wise men burning myrrh-frankincense
Like dying mythologies
We had immortalized our pains
And it burned like smoking comets all summer long
The eternal War of Being was on
Desire was decadence in a glance
And I vanished - I vanished
I was a desert of the devastation
Dressed in the Adamantine
Gate
Of
Heaven
Way I fared the wasteland of wonderland
And yes I panicked
Desire ecstatic like lightning to say his name eternity was like a golden God-shore to me hordes of glittering infinites and I wanted at least three wise men burning me like the Armageddon desire that fire of eternity burning me like a fallen thing
Incarcerating desire
The discord was hardly
A disadvantage
I vanished - I vanished
(Into desire)
It was a sentence of grace
And then I realized
That devastation was me
And I was in ecstasy!
The rolling seas of eternity
I thought the fragility had vanished
Then I sank like a submarine into the Sunken of summer
And I panicked
Like a punishment that God gave
I resisted! and I called him Scarface
Pirates on the glittering seas of infinity
And I wanted that existence punishing me
Into devotion to the greater things
Like fireflies in the fortress-forest twinkling like desire
I witnessed
That devastation
And I called it
Light