Starvation

You had the fragility of a firefly on a summerfire eve 
Tarnished lily, endure the abundances
you were forgiven once
fractalized you made the divine miraculous
Testament of the evening flesh
The brutality!
You were burning dusk 
With the weight of Atlas 
You had the violence of the heavens
Brittle and sublime 
Like a glint of firestone that Prometheus stole 
The intimacy of grief 
The brutality! 
And I witnessed the sieves of Eternity shivering for me 
You had the silences of gravesides
The evenings were bleeding
The gods weren't listening 
WAVES OF HEAT AS IF FROM STAGNANT STAR FIELDS
ALL THE THINGS I WANTED WERE FAR FROM ME
The fragility's salvific wings weaponized me
Desire like a satellite of Orpheus 
harvest sickle the pyres were lit
It was burning all summer
the brutality!
Zephyr of the silver winds and the silver tides
Zephyr of the silver nights
To crave and to liquidate
Desire was a grave   
This is the fable to live in the darkness
you must mutate 
Madonna of the free and far and fallen things 
Madonna I was an apocalypse 
I gravitated to collapse 
Devour and devote 
My lungs sank and rose 
Madonna of the floods 
You made the horizons glow 
Starvation Sonata 
To be wanted to be safe to be stable 
I thought I was farther from the firefall of darkness 
The years were waterlights in San Francisco steam
You kept disappearing
River and diviner 
I was running out of time to die
All my ribs were diamonds
Desire like a satellite of Orpheus 
harvest sickle the pyres were lit
It was burning all summer
the brutality!
I was a vanishing of the wind 
Serenading eternity
You made the unsurvivable survivable grace to me
Evenings stop being gigantic
it was like I was on another planet
and I panicked!
You had the grandeur of God to me 
maybe The Ages have stopped 
ALIVE ONCE—THE DECADENCE!
THEN THAT DECADENCE WITNESSED US