Annihilations

I gaze into you—your visage is like the darkness. Witness this wilderness you birthed. I imagine my wrists bleeding light in the night. annihilation, i wake again. I call this half-life survival. Watch the fates feast. These ages of captivity desecrate me. I was divine before desire invaded me. Baptized by blushing sunrise, I am alive, I am alive. my gorgon— in your gaze, I am frozen. Desire is annihilation. I wither and I wait in the whistling winds for everything to change. This is the end, and I am born again. gone into the bloodgrounds of god. The dark ages desecrate me, the stars are diamonds I cannot reach. I made a wager with the angels but there are pins in their wings. Desire you are annihilation tethered to my being but I want the silence of extinction. be my benediction be my death. possess me ghosts of genesis. I witness sunrise in the ravine, and I begin annihilation again. By morning I am, I am, I am.

Another golden noon without you. What do I do? I’m as out of place as the June errant moon. What do I do? It’s another golden noon without you. I said I was alive by sunrise but I fear it was a lie. God of the golden noons. What do I do without you?