Honey

I wanted you to be magic but you were just a man. I fear you relish in my need. Desire genesis desire genesis. Grief of the flightless, I witness the infinite. What fleeting salvation awaits in your embrace? Yes I chase ephemeral graces. A promised paradise, vanishing at your lips, I witness the infinite. Holy wounds, I refuse to be subsumed by you. In the purgatory of morning, the shores are kerosene, and the universe is burning. I regret this existence—how I wish I had never been forced to choose—oh God I'm through with you—my merciless adversary. Suicide summer. That dagger of heaven, desire! Returning annihilated, I witness the infinite.

Rope of the gods at my throat honey for Cerberus on my tongue in the tides of evening I believe, I believe, I summoned you to me the stars stream across black wastelands a nightingale screams in captivity sweet death of desire I witness the infinite midnight before the venomous moon blood in our tourniquets I encounter god in the wounds I witness the infinite solitude at the border of the void revive me in the eventide I cannot bear the terrors of empty Eden sentence me to exile sentence me to desire a whisper of life at your lips I witness the infinite by the day’s departing majesty in the bed of a basilisk I witness the infinite collapsing under the junkyard of stars scars on my arms from another decade of tarnishing burning alive before bright sunrise I submit to willful captivity I’m chained to desire gods bondage at the gates of galaxies I witness the infinite you drown in my mouth and like a perishing god I fall in love with devouring wrestling with the winds, I witness the infinite witness this darkness in the marrow of my bones scars on my arms from another decade of tarnishing forsaken in this flesh I witness the infinite the rope of the void at my throat honey for Cerberus on my tongue in the riot of evening you gaze at me with your gemstones eyes and I’m Eve naked in Eden again seeking annihilation I witness the infinite and I believe, I believe, I summoned you to me witness my surrender sweet death of desire I collapse before the junkyard of stars your name a barricade against the wasteland burning universe there’s a parade of flames simmering at my skin I witness the infinite and I’m it I’m it

at the bladed altar of the stars I witnessed the infinite and I am it for an instant