I Called It Adamant

Metamorphosis after this wild Genesis 
Still I waited for you in that vast wilderness
Breathless in the hills and out of life yet I survived that stillness 
Who was I before this wild Genesis?
Who am I to survive this?
Who was I before this metamorphosis? 
It was adamant daybreak then now it's good morning midnight 
I was dreaming Adamantine 
Desire this replenishing ecstasy
I wanted and I wanted senselessly
With the decadence of dying empires 
I wanted and I wanted ravenously 
Desire an angel with wings of Adamantine 
Even among the fallen of Earth you were a marvel 
Desire this chain of being resurrecting every night  
Well hang me by the high chandeliers of light 
I survived vanishing many times
At world’s end I felt I was a liminal being 
This decadence 
To resurrect twice
Once for desire 
Once for appetite 
Desire said: I am Genesis 
I worshipped desire in the midnights
Chasing after these wildernesses 
In the flooding world you chose drowning to survive 
This is the mirror of moonlight 
This is how you die 
In a Genesis void
I was vanishing liminality like the twilights 
Beckoning tragedy in Paradise 
Desire this wilderness I worshipped  
Madonna drowned in the vortexes
Salvation from the wasteland  
I was stranded in this wanting wilderness 
Desire the forbidden republic— this wild Genesis 
I was liminal as the summer twilights 
Twice I died  
Twice I survived 
Dreaming of the Adamantine galaxies
And then the Adamantine galaxies dreamed of me
This honorable death from desire I wanted and I wanted ravenously  
I resurrected into that wilderness I desired that wilderness
Down the steps of heaven to the apocalypse midnights 
Desire this evening ecstasy I wanted and I wanted senselessly
Still this wild worship to me 
Tears in rain Genesis 
Desire resurrected me  
What annihilation it is to daydream 
Desire I wouldn't forget 
This hinge of creation at Genesis 
Yes I worshipped at your knees but only momentarily 
You were a morning rising again and again from the midnights
Even I called it ecstasy when desire worshipped me
I wanted and I wanted ravenously   
Desire this reaching Genesis of decadent Babylon 
Even God said I worshipped too long 
You vanished with the fickle winds 
I called it decadent Babylon when I worshipped at your knees all winter long 
You reminded me of the universes Adamantine 
These midnight disquiets I survived
Worship in starless wilderness
I was dreaming Adamantine 
What if you annihilated the sirens to stop their crying?
What if you survived this oblivion only to die from desiring?  
I escaped from the graveyards of decadent Babylon 
and the world I had once worshipped was gone