Night Migrations

I survived so many nightmares for you. I knew the end of my yearning would be the end of my writing.

I survived the night migrations
Desire burned like radiance to me 
I spent those years withering 
Desire burned a paradise in me 
Madonna in the shadows 
How long will I exist like this?
This savior of the riverbed with pockets of stone 
Riverbed our Lord and Savior calling me home 
Carry on and carry on Avalanche of the Past 
I withered and I withered alone 
A spectacle of flesh — this radiance 
Savior of the riverbed oblivion I surrendered 
Desire this warchild in me 
Burning like signal fires
Wait for me by the riverside 
This fragile wilderness before industrial dawn
Hearing echoes of voiceless gods 
Yes I was dreaming in those meadowlands
I was drowning at the riverbeds 
The angels descended from the light hills 
Then you vanished from my fingertips 
Disappear said Dawn 
Yes I went deep into that violent wilderness
Desire like Ophelia the riverside exile
Who could survive the desolation of vanishing Paradise?
These night migrations after banishment from Eden 
You vanished in the evenings 
Desire like a deity surely you preceded me 
Desire burned like radiance to me
Yes I went deep into that violent wilderness 
Desire this apocalypse 
The world ending twice 
Once for desire 
Once for appetite 
Desire this radiance that saved me 
Despair this radiance that saved me 
Neither I nor the night migrations 
Could forget you by the mornings first light vanishings 
Desire this wreckage of burning Paradise
Survive Eden's Banishment 
Only to find surrender before your eyes 
Sunset in the Empyrean
This life like a withering daydream
Desire this fragile wilderness 
Hearing echoes of the voiceless gods 
I was dreaming in those meadowlands
Desire this rising wildness I survived 
The voyaging gods forgot us 
Desire this ruin of wilderness 
Desire this withering 
Survive the night migrations
Desire I was floating in the meadowlands 
Night migrations 
Into the angels arms I cried I exist I exist
And then you vanished like the wind in my fingertips
Desire this radiance 
Call the angels—dawn is coming 
A miracle birth of this idling light
Phoenix in resurrection fire
First I was baptized in this light of existence
and then you vanished from my fingertips 
Here come the flooding worlds 
Hallowed Madonna in the meadowlands 
I made a God surrender to me during the burning summertimes 
Signal fires in Troy burning 
This is the end of the world 
You died once for desire 
And once for appetite 
And both times you survived 
Sometime in the burning summer
I dreamt you from vanishing Edens  
Surely beloved you were born in a golden world 
Desire burned like devastation to me 
Desire burned like radiance in me 
When you spoke you were like a floating god to me 
If this is the end of the world 
Then surely you would know? 
I survived the night migrations during summer twilights 
Desire waiting for me like Charon by the dark riversides 
If some other god possessed my soul 
Surely you must know? 
This is the end 
Here in this twilight we die 
Desire burned like necessity in me
That is how desire survived the night migrations
Desire this burning radiance
Lost in this vast wilderness 
Desire this fragile oblivion 
Desire this fragility consuming me 
Desire burned like revelation 
Unbelievably I am that decadence 
Desire burned like radiation to my skin
Here in this oblivion of Imperfect Eden
We vanish
We vanish with the whirlwinds 
Desire burned like decadence in me 
This withering existence I was buried in
with visions of decadent Eden