I WANTED TRANSCENDENCE

in the ecstatic darkness I dream I got what I wanted, I wanted transcendence
but it was only the beginning of decadence
I wanted freedom but I found myself in another tomb
while I was waiting for a swift ecstasy you came walking towards me like a god forced into mortality
everything is America in the end it was decadence that resurrected me into being
Madonna rose from her thorned tomb of roses at moonrise and woke with new eyes
The rest of this existence was fathomless abyss—I prayed you again and again at my lips
Desire had its jagged teeth in me and oh I desired you for many luminous eternities