Lilith

Witness bright fires whipping the night. I fear it was desire. Oh I am, I am condemned to brokenness again. I chose this, I chose this. From the wound a world woke. I spent my twenties climbing from the trenches of desire. The weeping earth said drink my tears, and so I drink. Bring me to elysium, wellspring of desire. My compulsion to be loved above all else, deus vult! Desire I am your ravishing victory.

At your fragile wings of desire, I lived, so ravish me Lilith 
While the bright fires whip the necrotic nights
Ravish me like I am your daughter desire 
I witnessed Oblivion that famished steed galloping towards the living 
Genesis at your starving lips, ravish me Lilith  
Rapture in your arms, I am but a creation of ravening desire 
Genesis on my knees 
Witness your victory 
The darkness it claimed me 
Like I was a daughter of ravishing desire 
Under sunset’s surviving fires, I'm finished at your lips
Genesis on my knees, I witnessed the infinite
Years of darkness, it changed me 
Like I was your sacred daughter of sundering desire
Listen to the vulture’s requiem I am lifted into winged griefs  
I surrender! I am your daughter Desire!
In anguish — the fingers of a common crucifix — I witnessed the infinite. and I lived I lived.
Madonna of the mandrakes, I am your disciple waiting for the poison of delight
Desire burned as devastation in me.
It was chained to me. It was radiance to me. It was I that wrestled with He.
What despair? I surrender! I am your daughter Desire.
Desire, do not relinquish me. I live inside the soaked throat of a dream. The dream of the deluge. From the wound a world rose. You brim inside me like a flood of God. So seal me in desire. Seal me in the prison of my skin. When you arrive, I invent new needs. So bury me before bright sunrise. Ravish me into the darkness of desire. Lilith the light rushed like a needle to my spine. I Die I Die. My heart arrested with want. A starving saint at the gates of the black galaxies I listened and I whistled to the infinite as fires whipped the necrotic nights. I knew then that I had to eradicate myself. Lilith, the light is rushing like a needle to my spine. I Die I Die in the riptides of twilight. Vanquished by need like I was in a duel with desire. Bury my house of bones deus meus I’m coming home. Sweet shining vespers, do not end me, desire possesses me. I gazed into the eyes of Terror. From the darkness, genesis! I witnessed the infinite, I lived, I lived, as fires whipped the nights. Who am I in the raving dark, when my heart is arrested with want? Who am I in the temple of desire? My heartbeat, the berserker at my breast. Beckoning, beckoning, restlessness at my flesh. I witnessed a universe in burning shrouds. Terror adorned with the splendor of a god. Carve me into your arms. Baptize me on the blades of black seas. I was your daughter Deluge when that brutality witnessed me.