Meridians

It was the end of days all I wanted was to witness storms with you and then Madonna came with the dark rains of Genesis . I could not be but consumed…the acts!…of decadence I remembered … creation that was there before I uttered . I worship the sun you were raised on .. .the acts! of decadence! and I called it genesis. You are everything that makes me want to survive—Elysia— the binding— the binding. are these the golden years I feared? with reverence, with reverence, do I regard your great eternities. Elysia, the binding, the romance! of these blades! how I worshipped your radiances.

My enslaver, the calling distant meridian
these shadows of heaven from the gallows beckon
despairs of the black Earth, there is summer in your eyes
wandering meridians and I am lost in tempting Edens again
you who needs me, you who fears me
like great Eve you erode me with desire
severed from the blessings, in the night countries all I have is the wound of memory
the stars shrink before your sublime majesty 
this life of wild flights—the violence of your sleepless eternities 
oh great death tell me where is your crowning victory?
Betrayer of the nazarene these are your dark miracles 
Standing between the fires of morning and midnights
while the feasting angels regard us from the mezzanine 
the harrowing, heartbreak —hurricane gales ravaged the wastelands 
Blackbirds buried in barbed wire, there is stillness in fire
in the ecstatic deeps, in the darkness of your workshop, desire crushed me
in devotion I ran to you and the fields were wild with chicory
Moonlight on the goldenrod and I thought it was god
under the stake of starlight I dreamed of escaping to Paradise
I prayed you at my lips and my prayer was for the abyss  
like I was betrothed to the shadows 
Sunset in the west was a burning bush 
Cursed hunger oh divine avarice, where is your crowning victory? 
What a grace to end up in California with you
somehow I was still blooming new wounds
running with the wild winds in the late evenings
Black Pietà of the tear-drenched Earths, I witnessed the birth of seedlings in spring
creatures of dust with sparks of Paradise
you had the radiance of the heavens and I was alchemised!
If you crush me then crush me swiftly 
the brutality! of your judgment! spring’s crucifers witnessed me in captivity
abandoned in the shadow woods una selva oscura exalted creature walk from darkness to daylight 
high above in interstellar seas, the stars mock your gluttony! 
the spectacle! of creation! this is your birthright, to be alchemised by the light 
saint of numinous Paradise, who created you? Martyr of Eden, who betrayed you?
sweet symphony from the despairing spheres this is your lineage eternity I am your withering heir
to a verdant land I came, in dreaming seas I swam, before the darkness grazed me 
Captive to this nightmare, sovereign of the universe you vanquish me
These are the years of dead ends, I vanished with the rushing winds
what desires led to you such sorrows? moonlight on the goldenrod and I thought it was god 
Lightkeeper in the choirs of twilight, you reminded me of the divine
The fields were wild with chicory yes I shrink with the struggling winds
songbirds strangled on the roadsides how do you live in the violence of eternity? 
Across a vast shining sea of satellites I wait for your dark miracles, for deliverance from the broken world
I made a pilgrimage in the night winds and Madonna came with the dark rains 
the roses of god are thorned with venom survive this metamorphosis of becoming your echo
oh great beckoning death where is your strength? it was a slice of the divine I glimpsed 
It was the end of days and all I wanted was this Genesis 
If I'm dead again then these are the ruins of Paradise 
I was lost in the dark wildernesses when desire crushed me
it was a kiss before slaughter I made a prayer to the abyss at the chamber of your lips
once more I regard the stars my ship of mind alive again in the horizons
this is the origin of fire, the turbulent clouds rose, when you collapsed against me
this rushing of the winds — god invades me again, dreaming in chains? you bind me in vain
oh great beckoning death, where is your crowning victory  
this beautiful life in burning eternity, who are you among your ancestors? 
The sirens sing and you forfeit your life for desire 
you exalt me, dark Paradise at my bedside! 
we were penitents supplicating the skies 
awaiting the golden crown of sunrise
gone with the winds and the fields were wild with chicory
I prayed you at my lips and my prayer was for the abyss
una selva oscura exalted creature walk from darkness to daylight 
after the acts of decreation I am void again
you tortured the divine out of me I worshipped at your knees the fields were wild with chicory
you crossed the red seas to meet me
DARK PARADISE YOU EXALT ME
ARE THESE YOUR GREAT MERCIES
my enemy, the flesh! and its desires! 
time of the struggling winds desire you drive me to the ravine
the alchemist is resurrected from dust
how dearly I love to die! I do it every night 
in devotion at your bedside, desire I will be your victory  
desire, the instant is an act of treachery — 
Vexilla regis prodeunt inferni
into the infinite, how I wish the gods could blind me 
if this is purgatory then you will burn with me
Moonlight on the goldenrod and I thought it was god 
holy world beyond the horizons, I was shrined as a virgin suicide 
le désespoir dark one behind the clouds are these your great mercies dividing me?
Poisoned by this life I was chasing the screams of the divine
Holy horizons rise to meet me, you bind me to dark Paradise, desire your winged victory
The fields were wild with chicory

Mary witness this war that ravages me like a newborn I stood in wonder before your soul entangled in your sorrows Sanctus, sanctus, sanctus sea of shadows save me these are the golden years I feared Paradiso in my throat miserere mei I must survive my griefs honey and locusts I thirst in the wilderness with reverence, with reverence, do I regard your great eternities with reverence do they witness me Hosanna drowning in the crowd of souls like ocean shores to holiness I go, to holiness I go agnus dei evangelion in the wilderness Madonna of the massacres, who carries your name yes in reverence to the black earth I answered