Prodigal Daughter

I want to crush my head against a planet. Everything before and after is/was wreckage. I do not forgive and I do not forget, it was fire against my flesh. Desire you rescued me from my fragility. The lady vanishes fantasy. Who am I in the raving dark who am I that thou say thou art who am I when you witness me what hubris for a fragile thing to dream of Being—do not deliver me this is better than eternity, the lady vanishes into fantasy. Years of starvation. I am awakening with desire again.

DESIRE, WITNESS YOUR PYRRHIC VICTORY
I SURRENDERED TO YOUR GRANDEUR
The gifts! of grief! I survived many vanishings
Desire my fever in the evening
There’s sublime thunder in my throat
Prodigal offspring born into blood
The rose has wounds as thorns
Pioneer in the winding hills of life
The Majesties! of the Marching Years!
What a solace the early grave
In ages of abundance, the body comes undone
Behold, the beloved like ambrosia on the tongue
Desire, witness: a diviner victory is won
The vortex of God gave birth to wilderness
Voyager in the lunar mountains
What is the purpose of your mourning?
Witness me wrestling the deeps
Hunt me across dunes of sunlight 
Come softly black Babylon
I will match your grand wasteland 
Burning my lungs but I love life again 
On the brink of disaster, desire!
Dark Paradise you exalt me
I am your daughter again
I am what you chase after
Theater of the fallen
Feast your eyes on me
I wandered the black bayou dawns
Come softly luscious Babylon
Desire do not desert me
The divine witnesses are missing
Immersed in my private tragedies
I waited for deliverance from vanishing
Still I went racing the wild winds
The blades of Genesis, you witnessed me in my nakedness 
I watched a flame of stars marching across milky way meadows
It was want, not need, that made me a captive to sublimity
Desire the rebel, you lead me out of exile
Salvation in the arms of a dark stranger
Fragile creature in an era of fire
Witness the burning of brilliant morning
I allowed the sharp shadows to devour me
How marvelous the decadence of defiance 
Witness! The eternal sentences!  
I am your daughter deluge
Face the disaster that I am
I arrived at your bedside
Desire burned like devastation in me
It was enough divine vengeance for me  
On the edge of a dream, I kneeled for mercy
What benedictions in necropolis night?
Desire do not deliver me
Suffering is metamorphosis
Transfigure me in the temple of twilights
I kneeled for mercy