Beverly Hills from Blue Heights, Photo by Scott B. Davis, 2004

The fragility I feared it needed me the devastation shattered me I wanted to die or I would kill myself trying I felt futility and I let the seasons move me a fever Dream it was a time of grieving it was freedom to me the suffering was kind to me it was Annihilation in a Daydream Desire resided in me it was radiating even insanity was like reason to me Void of opportunities I wanted God to devastate me I rejoiced in the banishing

the universe wouldn’t last
it was caught in the crossfire of collapse
and yes that devastation weaponized us!