The black gown of the universe was Adamantine I could not slip through that strange horizon Time history the fates had told me it was golden to me the moon and the sun had a good run I was coming undone like a whisper in the trees I woke in the womb of the winds crying in a chorus I rose to it yes it was a golden time for spiraling into sunlight I'm doing dangerous things but I don't want to be it was golden to me to be destroying wisdom it was freedom to resist in ignorance it was golden to me to remember what god had told me and then fold like paper there was wisdom in fear wasn't there? It was the moon and sun I was coming undone like a whisper in the trees the chaos was depleting me there were many worlds in the wind and all of them were leaving me it was golden to me how god rose in me he died in a field of golden sunlight at night one dreaming eve I saw god fold into the twilight it was a burial in light I was frozen into stillness bearing witness nearly killed me then I felt the god rising in me rising in my ribs like a singing desire it was golden to me good god the golden god had gotten me I was a dutiful daughter I folded like paper like a doll for the wanton devastation it was golden to me to be disintegrating the world in the wind was burning with us I was there in the golden field when god dissolved into the light Desire like a ravine I fell in burning with purgatorial fire I heard the eerie wingbeats of angels near the shore of Eternity I tasted the fruit of god and I wanted more silence was a sound to me my soul was awakening Eternity in a day to me Eternity decaying while it whispered to decaying me possession I was taken to the cliffs of heaven it was golden to me to witness the gestating doom it rose like a fire in my ribs like a singing desire and I was going to let it control me bondage was golden to me trapped among the stars I witnessed like a god whistling on the shore of Eternity Desire like a fever had smothered me it pained me to be taken by radiance it was a trap of golden light set up by a deity we had forgotten God bless that flaming light that kept me lit tonight dreaming up a palimpsest of forgotten eves I was like a daydream the deity grieved I needed freedom I needed freedom it rose in me it was golden to me DESIRE HAD ME SUFFOCATING LIKE A DIVINE THING WANTING
Joy on a golden day joy like poison for a mercy killing in a quiet burial of light joy was singing in my ribs as I witnessed that labyrinth of desire like a circuit of fire it was chaos in a control room it was golden to me how you wanted to witness me even as I was disintegrating frozen like the cold of heaven I suffered in your absence you were the fire warming me to completion labyrinth of desire like a circuit of fire it was golden to me to be decaying into daydreams summerfire season it was my destiny to unwind into time and surrender like fire in the wind a valley of desire burning in my ribs it was golden to me desire flaming me into a fever that I needed it was divine to me to be wanting the universe in reverse with me inside the singularity I was like a golden thing in a cloud of black abyss when I witnessed the beginning of the universe