The miracle of being wanted was a gesture of God Desire felled me like an avenging angel of the apocalypse with wings and halos that beckoned to me and taught me the names of the existences Desire like a dying planet desire was alive in me and I lived in it like the seams of daydreams Seasons of abandonment I abandoned my graves they were marching through my days and I was finished like a dream seizing me and then entire seasons of doom abandoned me
I witnessed a golem of god like an alchemist of the glistening sea like a torture of the furies that carnage was a season at sea to me desire was plundering me like daggers of dawn the genesis was magnificent and I was enfeebled by eternity like an ex that wouldn’t leave I could have guessed that the terror would have sentenced us like a molten gate of dawn the spectacle was resurrecting me the planets were a procession of pilgrims like in a dream and I put my neck on the guillotine I laid it down the velocity of despair like a book of glass under bombs I detonated into incoherence and shattered every season after season
I was an ancestor of the earth on the steppes of the spirit I was choreographing my doom the spectacle enraptured us into ecstasy desire that labyrinth of fire like a neck at the sentencing and I could not bear it the voltage of the stars illuminated the tragedy it was cruel wasn’t it to see the world under illumination I could not stare at it like a detonation of glances the aggression of the angels possession I was taken to the cliffs of heaven like a bride of doom and the stormlit dunes possession by the barbarism of the dark I was captured like a slave hanging on the high cliffs of Heaven it was a tragedy we were reaping in the mornings mist and I could have sworn that the world was of my dreaming and I witnessed the world ending soon we were bridegrooms of that doom it was an overgrown garden of annihilation and I made it my home
The departures were exquisite exits from our sentences it was desire that resurrected us into the infinities and I was resurrected into depletion I could not bear the molten glance of the golden gods that I spurned in a nightcall season of sentencing it was resurrecting doom then that resistance resurrected me into a spectacle of the fallen things and I wanted it! Desire like a sentencing the day opened like a blooming blade it was a sentencing of light I asked god for the carnage I wanted it to annihilate me into existence the symbolism of the dark the tragedy was like a choreographed spectacle of things that we could end every eternity and I dreamt that those spectacular disasters would end us finite things it was desire wasn't it witnessing me? I did the eternal existences they tripled me like a tripartite god in the books of eternity we had no hand in that tragedy it was eternity! eternity that sentenced me like a lover in my dreams of submission dead before eternity would have heard of me it was a sentencing to be limited into finitude I dissent— I dissent— I dissent— it was the sainted end of endings and I wanted it haunting me like a shadow from the past it was desire that entered me and I shattered into screams of ecstasy it was desire wasn’t it I dissent — I dissent — I dissent it wasn’t the end
I was by your side burning like desire in the fires of eternity we were partners in crimes of history and destiny you were a shimmering thing wanting me and what a desire what a desire you were a luminosity vital to life you were a treasure of eternity desire like a resurrection of feeling it was radiance to me it was quaking in me desire burned like devastation in my skin I was already crying for my death when I fell in the resting eternities and I witnessed--
I haunted earth like a spirit overstaying its visitation we were surrendering to the existences the eves carried me into eternity it was a flight into desire like a feather drifting in the sidewalks of the skies and I witnessed eternity like a chapter in a psalter we saw to the slaughtering of the evenings like daughters for the disintegration we were cousins in depleting the eternities green gardens of paradise like annihilations of verdancy I wouldn't survive desiring you the origin and the end it was the Big Bang in reverse to a cradle of darkness and I saw that book of eternity fold like a scripture that god had scrapped I saw the golden globe abandoned and I panicked into dreams
Desire like a planet of reckoning that rippled into twilight ripping me to my innards it was eternity gripping me like I was a sentenced thing those witnessing clouds formed an opinion of me I gazed into the voided steppes of midnight desire lifted us into the infinities of the light it was impulse like a nightcall that united us for a season of reckoning I became a fallen thing it was desire wasn’t it that sentenced us like light the eternities were distorting my vision it was desire that was dreaming of consuming me into eternity and there was a sacred part of me that wished I desired that it would kill me in a sentencing of light I felt an eternity sinking me down into existence it was desire wasn’t it that trapped us in the confines of a miracle I wanted eternity to sentence me to a more exquisite delight that punishment time ending the finite things and I called for the end like an escort seeking reimbursement desire was a need that outlived the nations I arrived in your arms too late it was desire that caused me to disintegrate into the days and I evaded—I evaded—I knew hesitation was a grave but I could not fake a will it was desire that was living inside me like a killing thing that replicated into abysses eternity was an imitation of light life I was triumphing over infinity that darkness in a vacancy
IT WAS DESIRE WASN’T IT
AND I DESIRED THAT IT WOULD KILL ME
IN A SENTENCING OF DELIGHT
I WITNESSED THAT DEVASTATION
AND I CALLED IT LIGHT