I was cursed I could not say which entanglement had me worse the World watched me before it wrecked me it was a weapon to me the arms of the Darkness beckoned to me I fear that the Darkness was gaining on me it was lame to me how much I needed saving there was wisdom in dissolving my precarious life frozen in Time I surrendered to stillness then I willed that brokenness the gods were weary of us my mind was Somewhere Else Higher Still in my head and only there was I fearless it was a hazard I was gravitating to the World needed grieving I don't remember why it was leaving me I was as an angel felled through the Membrane of the Sky being embodied was a grief to me witnessing was sinking me there was velocity in vanishing the days Went and Went I didn’t know what it meant it was marvelously ridiculous to suppose the universe wanted to finish us I was through and through and yes I fear those things may have killed us it was once or twice that I wanted them to— that Terror nearly felled me that Terror was a dwelling to me the reasons to remain were receding devastation was beside me guiding me a stranger to the universe I was through and through I believed it was essential to my being to be longing for distant things every year I became more distorted I was waiting for the angels to destroy me I was through and through imponderable though it was I felt I had to— I didn’t believe in divine signs it was Divine enough to have a Mind like a moth of death that I was welded to it Destiny was a departure of dreams as if a whale swallowed me it was a membrane of Darkness that I waded through the World had the quality of a daydream like me it was in danger of disappearing my stories of self were shifting even decaying was a grace that betrayed me this existence was like a grave to me imponderable anguish it was World Enough for us it felt divine to—  give up on trying to— the 3am blush sky rushing to dawn I felt it was kind to announce to the World that I was through and through!