Season after season I cultivated unreason year after year I dive I drown coward that I am into fear it was the wanting world that wrecked me and I learned too late that it was the brutality that had kept me I wanted to be fettered I sought a cage that would chain me settled something to bind me a searing flame to guide me we were born into a world that detests us when we wanted one that kept us and I believed I believed that beyond some colossal cloud there was a careless Maker that saw me so and so and it was the brutality that I remembered I could not let go