Why do I find it scintillating to see my soul fading infinity into infinity my life light and liminal unwinding into a vacancy I feared a reckoning without reason my sanity sacrificed I dove deranged into oblivion to fall by fever or by fire I fled to a home inside my head listening for echoes of elysium I sought the sublime I dreamt of summer seas and the other infinities I wanted to bow one eve before the silvered moon && be delivered for it was a brutality that chased me it was a brutality that lay waste to me before the murmuring universe reeled me in I daysleep I daydream I daydrift in blinding starlight it was a fear that would find me a foe it was for a wonder that I stayed and for a wonder that I would not let go I resist I resist!