Fire-scorcher
Heaven was a hostility of light
like a blood sacrifice
desire choreographed us
into catastrophe
I held reliquaries of stillborn figs
we were lion lambs
ambushed in the starving seasons
months like sinkholes
Magdalena of moth wings
I was a revenant in rapture
from the necromancer moon
if a wishbone was the origin of the world
it was devotion to devastation
I dreaded
Possession
by the zealots of heaven
my redeemer—the Fury!
I feared the enchantments
I was a sibyl of no consequence
there were screams in summer’s sacrament
vanishing like vapor on the roads
and I chose
to be wounded
as an ornament of God
Enigma
Swimming in Time’s river basin
The waves were black and bone
on the brink of summer fire season the banks of despair
somehow summer fire season like a spring Persephone had taken
and I made the fire my home
and I kept wondering
why every summer fire season it was quaking
how many silted summers would I have to sink in
every summer fire season had me in survival
every summer fire storm and I was alive and
I remember what you did and it was terrible
Like a cruel spring I had to survive to get here
The lady vanishes! in summer fire!
and it was survival that
had Taken
me
power lines at midnight
the lady vanishes!
in a panicked state
it was despair (not desire) in Decadence
that had me sinking
in summer fires
like a sunken season that
had Taken
me
an eternity
under your marauding Eyes
like setting suns
the lady vanishes!
into regret
decadent Hell
it was despair (not desire)
that had me sinking
in summer fires
the lady vanishes!
into a season of survival
there was living lightning in my ribs
and I needed—
God of the Gale
I had forgotten how much I wanted
Our sun was like a golden golem
Rising every dawn
The name of God
At the gaping jaws of silted horizons
Bloody sunrises like gashes in the skies
Call me viper
Heavens tether was a gallows rope
I wanted an exorcism
It wasn't enough
God of the gale
I had forgotten how much I wanted—
Eros like a crown of thorns
Burning in the glass coffins of every blood sunrise every moonless horizon like a golden golem rising from the felled earth
There was razorlight at the nape of my neck
nor could I forget
a God of the gale
was diving from the wreck
The Squalor
Soothsayer of the low tides
and I wanted to die
I wanted to die
That dark horizon had me singing
and for a time I was limitless
Feed the machine? Well, I was screaming
In the tombs of Eternity
Daylight’s anvil in the squalor summer
Surrendering to soundless chaos
and I vanished
I vanished into wonder
That dark horizon was feeding me
and for a time I was limitless
In the cauldron of existence
Living lightning flashed in my eyes
Imagine eternities in tongues of fire like flaming graces
and I wasted and I wasted and I chased it
Summer skies swollen with storms
I was a peasant of the meadows
but it was irradiated wasteland
The moon had winged shadows
and I panicked
I panicked in Time
Tessellating storms on the skylines the moon was in a reservoir it was splendor and squalor on a moonshine sea but I was sinking in the Machines like a cyborg thing
and I wasted and I wasted and I wasted and I chased it
and the stars were twinkling in repose
and the apertures were arresting me
it was a sorcery of light I chose
but for flaming grace I chased that agony with nothing to lie upon
and I was gone and
I was gone
Symphony of the four winds
my eyes were restless evangelists
Vanishings in the tombs of golden afternoons
I wanted every golden eve I held
and I wanted them to—
the planet was singing like desire to me
there was darkness in the universes Adamantine
and I vanished
I vanished with Time
Lantern over the abyss
I was an angel of the apocalypse
and I witnessed the ends
An infinity of times
Devotion
Devotion was killing me
I was speechless
Moon fish leaping out of mist
Holy fires in the god-garden
Day delirium (I was dying)
Confinement in the miracles
(I witnessed)
(The end of all things)
(Like a blessing)
(From the cold rivers of Heaven)
Falcon's Nest
Bard of the shattering stars
Heaven was a restless mezzanine
And I was robbing daylight in a frenzy
Remembering the people that had forgotten me
Sleeping beauty on a bed of blooming thorns
The moon was wounded like me
Metamorphosis—I would burn
In the grandeur of fire
Desire was my coffin
We were dragged into acres of Heaven
By cherubim
The verdicts of mirrors was a minefield
Diamond cutting morning light
We were Wounded in the god-tomb of life
A feasting falcon’s nest
Aching autumn was no birthright
And I feared we wouldn’t arrive
Hierophant
All the lives I never lived tripping me up
I spent the summers disappearing daylight in eves
Summer light fire dreaming me up
Heading down the vapor roads as a god of the wilderness
Dreaming of your wild eyes gaze
Late twenties I guess I was supposed to have things together
But I was even more untethered than when I was younger
Maybe I was lacking agency
I was waiting for someone to do something for me
Blades of the moon
I was tired of forgiving
I was sure the world was ending soon
Every year living became harder
Running on the meadows of the moon
Like I was its martyr
Like I was its daughter
I was sure the world was ending soon
Bladed moon grasses swinging in the rain
I was running like sheep in a wolf’s chase
The gods were scared of us
They couldn't find us
On the gardens of the moon
We were going home going home going home soon
Golden apples in a Hesperides grove
I was regretting all the things I chose
Inside that chrysalis of existence
And it was killing me
It was killing me like lonely summer eves
I was a hierophant of the dark seas
And I felt those seas getting up under me
I was a hierophant of the dusks
Like annunciation but it was us
What a configuration it was everlasting eternity
Those seas of eternity were getting up under me
We were cataloguing solitudes as if we were meant for greater things
Everlasting the dark seas were deadlines
Hierophant of the everlasting seas
You were the entire earth to me
What a crime and what a punishment
Drowning in the dreamscapes of existence
The seas were everlasting punishment to me
And it was martyr season
The universe was Adamantine
Desire sentenced itself
Then it sentenced me
Reminding me of the summer seas
Drowning me in summerfire deeps
Desire like a summertime
I desired that it felled me
Into the universes Adamantine
I was a descendant of the seas ribbons of fire
Everlasting the dark seas were deadlines
Nets of creation we were salvaging the wastes
All the glamours were castles of air
Darling of the devastations
The earth made us martyrs
Although I was its dutiful daughter
Everlasting seas
The earth couldn't be outlasting me
Desire was a sinking in the eternal seas
And I was surfacing like a siren from the summerfire deeps
Firewood soul
You contained all the polarities
I wouldn't let them bury me
You were my shipmate on an estranging sea
Another one of those summertime infinities
I was dying like a descendant of Desire
That estranging sea
I remembered your beatific gaze
Cataloguing the solitudes
Firewood soul I was eternity
The centaurs of Time weren’t running fast enough for me
Hostage of the night roads
I was migrating to Inferno
Pietà of the Midnights
A prisoner of surviving
I wasted my life
Wintering on the seasides
We were never going home
It was golden Genesis in a dome
Blooming like a blood wound
Pietà I was drinking moon juice
I was just trying to survive too
The lantern of the ages
Had me hanging
We were never going home
I was the changeling child
Like the Pietà I made suffering my pride
Darkness in the lantern of ages
Blooming as a blood wound
Pietá of the midnight coasts
Opium eater on the god-shore
I made suffering my door
Changeling child dreaming away time
Who will rival me
In annihilating beauty
The moon kept her eye on me
Like I was jewel of the deep
Dreaming of moonshine
Days steeped into nights
We survived the sieges
Through flood through fire
It was desire that had me
Hanging me like a lantern at the seaside
I wouldn't cry
I wouldn't cry
The days steeped into nights
Blizzards of Time I wintered by the seasides
We met when the wandering water moon was in flight
And it killed me it killed me trying to survive
I was a ghost a dream fearing dissolution
And we were going home soon
To dream away the time
It was survival that lit up
Like desire to me
Our destiny was dying and it was rising
It was fear that lit up
Like survival to me
There was a celebration in the throne room
But Nobody was home
Like a Pietá of the midnights
In the ashes of the Earth
We prayed it was metamorphosis
Because it was killing us
It was killing us
The divinity of desire
There were decapitated violets in Paradise
It was hard to remember why we did it
Grandeur of the god-shore
But I was bored of beholding it
While there was a celebration in the throne room
The sorrows we thought they were Proverbs
Cassandra with prophecy as a nightshade
I invoked diviner things
Rose of oblivion
There was a celebration in the throne room
I didn't intend to go
Prophecy was a night shade
And I remember
How they had Cassandra slayed
Fire Sermon
I would be more grateful for reality if I had a weaker imagination.
It was Glassed devastation crashing like light
Let me tell you what I needed
You burning with me all Summerfire season
They couldn't invent me in a forge
The hills were wild
It was desire killing me
In the summer eves
Rushing through the rollercoaster season
Like it was a ride
Like I wanted to die
And it was midsummer
When I dreamt your head was between the trees
As that lover moon lay behind meshed leaves
You were the midnight district that I put my wisdom into
It was a fire-sermon like God breathing and the wind maybe it was lamentations
And I was afraid of the revelations
Revealing my limitations
Sibyl hanging In a jar
I hardly grieved
when I was sinking in the summers
You were saving the abundances for another summer in eternity
It was a fire-sermon
Yes I heard Him
wheezing through the trees as ghost vapors
I was listening for the symphonies but it was chaos
It was golden dawn to me
The golden shadows of a god leaving me
Like firethreads of the apocalypse that burned
Like phoenixes in my grip and I wanted you haunting me
Then the hauntings let me go
I was your revelation as a fire on wings
It was fire threads of the apocalypse like a phoenix that I ate
Glassed devastation shattering into light
Dawns rebirth after each evening and it killed me and it killed me
It was a fire-sermon like God revealing wisdom and the wind maybe it was lamentations
I was a clairvoyant of the golden coasts and
Your eyes were fixed on me like I was a magician
Like an epiphany of light I crashed like lightning into clairvoyance
It was a fire-sermon like God grieving and the wind well maybe it was lamentations
You were a magician of the thunder
and I wondered
It was mirrored hell in the meadow and you were the cooler of moonlights
I was a peasant of the tempest moons and I was going home soon and
We were on highways of the golden coasts
Out of touch of the surfaces
Like a decomposing thing
I was going out like tea lights it was too short of a time
The thunder said do not prolong me
Your eyes were fixed on me as if I were some mind magician
Ariel of the tempest moons
And I was going home soon
Midnight deeps we were wandering the moons
The halls of god were emptying
I was burning in Carthage
The stars vaporized their stations of darkness
I was a lily in a flooded valley
The god-halls of Olympus were dreaming in colonnades
I was making no attempts to leave the prisons
Your hyacinth girl
Burning in Carthage instead of the departed
Anyway, if I end up with the Grecians
I want you there
Your eyes were fixed on me
Although the flesh is dust
You were a kindling miracle to me
Desire like a fire sermon
I was only newborn when I was sending worlds into dissolution
Like a miraculous thing
You launched a thousand ships from the towers of Ilium
You were called to keep the disasters at bay like a Templar knight but your falling was me
God was listening in the wheezing trees
I feel like it's my final season
We used a razor of the angels
And I wonder what that made the suicides?
You were a kindling miraculous fire being
and I was made of evergreens
As the ice melted look what I found
It was just a basin of diamonds
And I was tired of it
I was tired of it
And I wanted to found out
You were the miraculous thing dissolving me
The days were fire-drakes
There were wild beasts on the moonpasses
The Darks were gathering like voyagers we were beholden to
You were a miraculous thing
Dwelling with the seraphim
But you didn’t exist
It was just a basin of diamonds
I wanted life but you had vowed to destroy me
The despair was more than a weekend
You were a kindling miraculous fire thing
Before you were newly born to us
And I witnessed that fire beholding us like a drake of the night valleys
We heard the fire sermon from the eyes of hell
and then we were carrion food
Betrothed to the evergreens and
yet you were the kindling miraculous fire thing in my being and I sent worlds to dissolution
Arcadia was glassed devastation
Let’s stay here
The fire sermon was real
We were sealed by heaven before the sundering
You were a dream that rose in me
I think there were tongues of fire bringing down Sinai
But lets go anyway
Blades to make a language I could understand
Now the rest was permanent
They wouldn’t have heard of us
We were minor deities in the cosmologies
And I wonder what that made the suicides?
It was just a basin of diamonds
And I was tired of it
I was tired of it
The Exiled
Lying in wait like some brightly burning tyger of Blake
Yes I hesitated
Brazen flaming giants, antagonists to the deities
Suddenly I'm a teenager again
And this time things are going according to plan
It was a dream I had
Then I surrendered it
We've all been played
And it was a good game
Blooming roses in the fire-garden of God
And I sought—
It was desire on wings
Draining me like a vampire of the end times
We were frankly welcoming them
And I witnessed the end of the opium of existence
And I witnessed a new age like an anchoress of the cliffs
The reservoirs of ages were voided
I was free to sink in the summers appetites
Seasons of wanting and I panicked
Mortal abominations at the divine gates
And I reasoned—
The end of all things was a blessing
Marvelous stillness in the heavens basement
And I desired that it would kill me
Levitating like an angel of vengeance
I was stationed in Time’s abyssal halls
And I vanished— I vanished—
It was existence like a dreaming garment cloaking me
Existence like spring twilights in summertime
And I witnessed the summer infinities swallowing me
It was singing like desire to me
Existence like a sentencing spring from Tuck Everlasting
And I was outlasting the Idylls of The King
And I vanished— I vanished—
Into a season of being
Maybe I never wanted anything
I witnessed the end of all things
Like a grace for the exiled of the kingdom
Angel of the Apocalypse
Angel of Revelation
Like an apocalypse of dreams
You had a life of eases
How did you become a devil in my mind?
How did you become a devil to me?
You were leaving shadows of a demon
Like footprints forged in the deeps
I thought we were safe slumbering
But we woke from an apocalypse of dreams
It was vertigo or sleep
Scatterings of light in sunpools
I was a spirit in Confinement
And like St elmo’s fire
I would divide myself in light
Mornings spilt in the dark mirror of Time
And I can’t get out
Springs of light like fire-isles
And all the mirrors were clapping thunder
A lantern in a tempest
St Elmo’s fire rippling like ultraviolet lights
Strolling through mountains of madness but it was life
You were Milton's daredevil
And I would divide myself
With a blacksmith’s forge into light
Prisoner of the plains
I was chained on Dawn’s scaffolding
In springs of light
You had the muteness of misty mountain peaks
from the cloistered meadowlands
like the boundaries of sleep
I was cast from Paradise that Meadowland
Following the promenade of bones
Ariel was sleeping in the seas
While Lilith was razing cities
I became an anchoress of the cliffs
Like springs of light
You were my strange attractor
Age of Aquarians he wasn’t there and I—
was tarnished
We were slaves to a philosopher’s stone
Harness of the divine
And I fear that downfall corroded me
I was Jezebel of the apocalypse
The mountains factories were smoking
We were drawing dawn lights in the wraith ships
You were like a stranger in an avalanche
And I needed you saving me
A decaying rose cast from Paradise
I was drunk on Being like a liquor of the faeries in the spring
the daypassages corroded me
I was a signature of fire
And the mountains were smoking factories
We were fishing for moons in ponds
You were the altar I was burning at
and I witnessed —
the end of the universe like a liquor in the spring
The Dawn was drawing its lights
Your bones are coral now
But you were Divine then
Age of Aquarians he wasn’t there and I—
was a tarnished Jezebel cast from Paradise
The wounded doom corroded me
Your eyes were glassblack devastation like pebbles of the riverbed
Heir of the fire ruins it was desire arriving as a stranger in an avalanche
And I wanted its salvation so I vanished in the summer lightning
It was desire cast from Paradise
And I witnessed
The falling of Jericho into golden ichor
Like the boundaries of meadowland
We were harnessed by the divine
I was a signature of fire
You were gorgeous then
But your bones are coral now
And I went down like drawing dawn lights with the wraithships
I varnished in a summer thunderstorm
Lightning inquisitor of the storm seasons
We were fishing for moons in ponds like Existence
I was Joan of Arc of the mining diamonds
You were the altar I was burning at
I was a tarnished Jezebel cast from Paradise
There were fire-flowers in the summer lightning
And I witnessed the end of all things
And now desire like a momentary eclipse
one eve ever since has me
dreaming in kingdoms of fish
I was drunk on being like a liquor of the fairies in the spring
You were divine then
Your bones are coral now in standing lakes of darkness machinery and
I vanished in the thunderstorm with the immensity of summer lightning
and I witnessed like a vespertine of the fire-ruins
we were picnicking in the wastes of the Deep
Drawing dawn lights from the black Earth
Those salvaged worlds mirrored me like an Incantation
I fell in fathoms of the sea
And then that Devastation witnessed me
You were the altar I was burning at
Like a monk in a bell tower
I was a signature of fire
And I vanished in a thunderstorm
It was a carnival of salvaged worlds
And I wanted you to lead me like a firebrand in the dark
We were mooncalfs in the twilight
There were isles of Laputa in the kingdoms
Existence was a chrysalis
And then you vanished like summer lighting
I was an apostate angel and my country was a cocoon
We were quarreling with the earth
and I reasoned—
that momentary eclipse could not silence me
for all the immensities but for a season
and I was in quarrel with the earth
Fire of the apocalypse desire
like a Piranesi in the mazes I was betrayed
Vespertine of the dark lagoons of time and I fear they were mazes
Sentenced like a witch of Salem to the chrysalis
Existence was an apostate angel without wings
The sky burning black oil from a spill of summer lightning
You were Milton's daredevil in imitation of fire
I witnessed Time that fortress
in quarrel with the Earth
We fell like sunken kingdoms of desire in the summer lightning
I was a Vespertine of tarnished worlds
Executed as a witch of a Salem and existence
I fear it was a cocoon of wisdom
A stranger in an avalanche
I wanted you saving me with desire and in the summer lightning I witnessed the end of all things mentioned eternally recurring and I witnessed the universe in tealights like St. Elmo’s fires on the mashes of darkness and the first fire desire was lightning in a storm
Fire in the Fairgrounds
Time the destroyer
Weaponized me into wings
I witnessed
The mark of the beast
In the earth’s fortress-forest
I was in the Nowheres
Like a reservoir of standing lakes
Existence was a fleeting threshold on the slopes of Heaven
I fell in the fountainhead of the divine
It killed me it killed me
Divided into the fragments of an angel
I was lamenting for the ages that made us into graves
Like a revenant hiding from the killing fields of sunlight
I stood on the promontory
To witness the handiworks of diviner things
Your ambition
Lulled me to sleep
The gods were listening
We could disinherit the sepulcher of the ages
From sentencing us to stillness
Three wise men running after me
How delectable it was to end it all
With prodigal waste filling my days
Three wise men witnessing me like lovers in rapture
And, let's face it, I needed
To be an object of desire
Starlight as white as ivory from mammoth tusks *
And yes I fear extinction was also coming for us
Watchman of devastation-dawn
The Eternal War of being was on
Released like dandelion dust
Into the sweeping existences
And I fear I needed
Everything
For a time I had the ego of a city-state god
A minor deity in the cosmologies
Still I witnessed
Smoking comets of starfire
Twinkling like desire to me
Dying was a promise, wasn't it?
Bonfire of the vanities
The sky was a swampfire of the marshes
I was the bard of a giggling god
Starstorms from the catastrophes
Had me laughing on my knees
I don’t know what I want from life
Maybe dying on the boulevards
Of suffering
Like a prophetess of pain
I witnessed the end of the universe like a god-kiss
Shattering ecstasy
The armed forces of Eden were flashes of a golden prophet
I was vanishing into the vanities
At the summers meridian
Strange fruit on the lattices of trees
Bombarded in the fortress-forest
By legions of the armed forces of Eden
I guarded the language of the angels like a golden prophet
An angel of the periphery
The Milky Way was a widow-maker
I was the baroque of Babylon
Desire that laboratory of fire
The spectators watched me like I was an angel of the devastation
Widow-makers of the milky wars
Flooded with enchantment
I wanted all the worlds to end
The moon like a radiator streaming from the trees
And the severed ends of eternity witnessed me
Imitating their immensity
I sought more monuments like the deity of a city-state
Carnival of lucent terrors
There were firelights in those marshes
We the unredeemed and I needed I needed I needed
One thousand doors of the universe closing in
I had a relationship with the fault lines of existence
My vengeance foe from the fogs of the unknown
Late-twenties like a grave of fireflies
and I wanted to die! **
Too much taken, too much borrowing of the light
You were life like desire to me
My midnight languages
Like [torn] effigies of the angel language
And I desired
Soliloquies of light
It was remarkable savagery
How you wanted me
Heaved from heaven
You were Desire to me
And contrary to reason
I desired the water lights of the existence
Like a riddling sphinx
Contrary to wisdom
I hoped the cornucopia of life would kill us
Savage of the badlands
The fragility deserted me
While I was an idyll of the king
You were sinking on those slopes of Heaven
And I chose
Myself
The Eternal War of Being was killing wisdom
Atonement for unholy angels
Oh the armed forces of Eden
In legions
Were witnessing me
The uprising of reason
I wanted eternity in a season shattering me to completion
I left reason for the greater eternities
And I wanted them screaming about having witnessed me
Desire twinkling in the twilights
And I wanted those armies of heaven releasing me
And I wanted your family drifting like a submarine under the seas
We were Romeo and Juliet
In the pupils of a disaster
Existence the madhouse of oblivion
And I stared into the black pupils of god
Like a collapsing star on the badlands of heaven
My veins injected with the golden arteries of a deity
The Eternal War of being was on and I was the chief
Existence was lunch at the roadside picnic and I was sick of it
And I experienced eternity as a punishment of dust
Watchman like a lullaby of light
At the world’s end
I was flayed as a snowbird in the spring
An impostor of light
Pines in the fortress-forest
The universe was a brimming gift
Desire was living in me as divine punishment
I was running into the Sunken
Like I was in the submarine of your family
The feast of existence
I tended like a fire-garden of God
And I sought—
The jewel of existence was a mirage
My silver life was actually asphalt **
And I was Lady Lacrimose
Parnassus of the waxing dark
Those bombarding armies of angels wanting to bestow wisdom
Ecstasy like Winter witnessing tulips in the spring
Witnessing the end of all things
Had me laughing on my knees
I wanted that verdure torturing me for a time but it was an Eternal Severing
All the snaking things in the god-garden of paradise
Taught me wisdom
And I heard the legions of Heaven
Like music of the universe from the flute of Pan
Surging soliloquies of light and I panicked—
The universe was an aged phoenix transmuting from flames
and I waited—
Like crystal chandeliers when I crashed into glassed Devastation
I shattered into light
Captain Bluebeard’s wives under the sea
With the sunken Leviathan of the fire-seas
And I was sure Captain Bluebeard
Advanced
Towards
Me
You brought a knife to a firefight
and I was burning as the friar’s lantern
Maybe it was the mark of a beast
Witnessing me all summerfire season
Decaying was a station of life
and I survived— I survived —
In fragments of light
Revelation in the firetides of Heaven
and I died — I died —
It was the twenty-first century
Let’s face it, the Leviathan was a Machine
Like scribes we could attest to the annihilations
Or let them dance with us
I witnessed the devastations like an artist of the stage
The faeries of a midsummer’s night dream found me one summerfire season
I was slumbering in the gilded silences of infinity
When fire achilles leapt through the seasons
East of Eden
You were a golden boy
and I sought
Even golder things
A mutiny of silences
And Bluebeard was my bride-to-be
I weaponized grief
Surely twenty-eight seasons is too
Soon to be sentenced to the fire-seas
Exiled for saying the eternities wasted us
Exiled for saying we wasted the abundances
I was as homeless as the furnished can be
It was Maslow’s Hierarchy
I WANTED THE ETERNITIES
LUSTING FOR ME
We would return to dust in the god-grave
(Or say they say!)
Fires on the fairgrounds
Like Sisyphus I was guarding the punishment
A chained slave on the fire-seas
I dissent— I dissent
Emperor of gladness
I wanted among the vanishings
The cauldron of [circumstance] like the fiery wings of an aged phoenix
And I waited
For that devastation to forge light
Sidewalks sinking under La Brea tar
Yes I walked with the stars in orchards of light
You were beheading flowers
Like a Prospero of transcendence
And I witnessed the polyphonies like afflictions of flaming light
Existence a punishment from the divinities
The mania of desire had me rolling in those fire-fields
Like a gyspy from the gardens of Babylon
I was immortal as a demiurge
Life was an effigy of eternity
I borrowed blood from the godhead
And I witnessed that eternity like an immortal
In Ecstasy
Morning arising like a coffin
I was a songbird shacked
And it was a massive fortune
Insatiable for the riche
Desire hypnotized with
Its burning solaces of grace
The fragility was a wasteland of grace
And I made it my territory
Felled trees of eternity
Hypnotized me like Piranesi in the mazes
That labyrinth of desire
I was wasted by the adornments of the sun
Lifted from the mares of darkness
Into promenades of light as if we were heirs of fire
World History like twisting sinews of Ariadne’s threads
And I witnessed those
Hectares of night
Releasing me into devastation
Barricade of the days
I descended into vacancies
Beauty is the highest form of being
We were beached whales
Advancing to devastation
The witnessing
Of auguries
Was clapping thunder to me
It burned like
Devastating desire
I killed my selves for light
Iceberg caves of ice
And I hid
Like a midnight dew mariner
A hyperborean on heaven’s rim
We were stirring eddies of dust
And the eternities were rippling
Derangement in the summer gleaming
And I needed —
The moon was a radiator in the colds of Nox
Like a fortress-forest of the dark
And I was far from my dreams
Witnessing those orbiting suns of Solaris
When the devastation embraced me
Three wise men burning myrrh-frankincense
Like dying mythologies
We had immortalized our pains
And it burned like smoking comets all summer long
The eternal War of Being was on
Desire was decadence in a glance
And I vanished - I vanished
I was a desert of the devastation
Dressed in the Adamantine
Gate
Of
Heaven
Faraway I fared the wastelands of wonderland
And yes I panicked
Desire ecstatic like lightning to say his name eternity was like a golden God-shore to me hordes of glittering infinites and I wanted at least three wise men burning me like the Armageddon desire that fire of eternity burning me like a fallen thing
Incarcerating desire
The discord was hardly
A disadvantage
I vanished - I vanished
(Into desire)
It was a sentence of grace
And then I realized
That devastation was me
And I was in ecstasy!
The rolling seas of eternity
I thought the fragility had vanished
Then I settled into the Sunken of summer like a submarine
And I panicked
Existence was a punishment that God gave
Well, I resisted! and I called him Scarface
Pirates on the glittering seas of infinity
And I wanted that existence punishing me
Into devotion to the greater things
Like fireflies in the fortress-forest twinkling like desire
I witnessed
That devastation
And I called it
Light
Irreducible
Oh, I have suffered / With those that I saw suffer. Miranda in The Tempest
I was terrified of the things waiting for me
The illusions were disappearing
Killing me in a sequence of silences
Everything was rushing
It was too much for me
Firefalling like Yosemite
Around the clock
Tearing off flower petals
I wish I could stop
Wanting to possess beauty
The fragility annihilating me every eve
I grieved I grieved
Then I melted to eternity
The spectacles
Winnowing me
Into singularity
Accumulated light
From the floods of daytime
Limbs of light peeling my sleeping eyelids
Wayless like the breaking days
I couldn't survive the pillars of creation
I was traveling sargasso seas
When the spectacles witnessed me
Spawning sun in the dark stations of night
I was a newborn babe
With an inquiring gaze
Before the shockwaves
I flamed amazement
Vanishing into territories of mist
I admit jealousy of infinity's edgelessness
The Earth owes me nothing
And still I wanted
A cloud creature fearing descent
I made a transaction with the darkness
Blossoming moon glow swallowing me whole
A funeral for the planet
I was at the wake
For the vanishings
And I prayed
That the flowering jasmine spring
Hadn't missed me
I was a sorcerer
Classifying the fires
Like an archivist of light
I saw Carthage destroyed
And I wanted more
A Valkyrie of the warlights in succession
Like a rich man needling through the eyes of heaven
I wanted impossible things to happen to me
Slumbering in the fever-furnaces of dream
It was existence like a leech that desiccated me
I would not betray the sound and fury
Epiphanies from the tempest
And yes we were sleepless
I was a gilded firebird on that horizon
I would inject my blood
Into the veins of earth
Spin light with the Spinners
Bear witness to that disaster
Carthage was history
I was a jewel of the earth
Before the grief reduced me
Endowed with reason and I wanted to give it up
Siren of the night
Grief reduced me
I was a bride of the disaster
The light was spinning
And I wanted it to Go! Faster!
I was a silhouette of the sun
Demons from the deep drumming
Like a refugee of fire
I was consumed by wounds
A history of my being
And it was annihilation
I saw the ocean surfacing in barricades of waves
Like the last gleaming rays of day
And I needed mirages sustaining me
It was too much
Time like a scimitar
A traitor even to idleness
I was in the dust with the locusts
Sleeping away eternity
Reduced by grief
I would not betray the sound and fury
Epiphanies from the tempest
And yes we were sleepless
What seest thou else
In the dark backward and abysm of time? Prospero in The Tempest
The Eternal War
The fragility found me one shimmering eve
I was trapped trapped
I saw those Beverly Hills Palm trees witnessing me
The eternal war
Let them burn
Let them burn
A conflagration that I started
And I wanted it burning hot
Fires from heavens edges
I wanted a break from the circumstances
Then that summer eve said hello to me
That eternal war Being
It was despair wasn't it
I was warned about being that destiny that remembered my request for salvation
I was in the sweltering yellows of summer
The cars racing on residential streets
I pretended the spotlights for Independence Day were for me
And there was I
Being that destiny
I feared it needed me to grieve
Even the homes had more than me
I was an isolated angel
Living on the rims of minutes like a mariner of Time
Excellence would have killed us anyway
My life is this nothingness-are you kidding? I grieved I grieved
Desire that overthrew nations laying waste to me
It doesn't matter we were guaranteed doom
And our lives would be over soon
I'd make no vigil for dusks
They had the rest of us anyway
And I them
Who could survive the sentencing
The eternal war it was on
I don’t think I ever thought my life would be so much nothingness
I'd make no vigil for dusks
We were guaranteed freedom but it was a whirlpool of light
Arcade of the angels
And I was the game they were playing
The Great War
They wouldn't learn
Summer eves sentencing me
The sky was an inverted forge
And I wanted
More of creation
I prayed it was a feverish creation
Because I was sure it would end me
Demon of Frankenstein
I wanted out of my chains
The sky was an inverted forge
And I wanted more of creation
The gulfs of dream
Desecrated me
I was lost in other dimensions
Hollowed like purgatories of light
Desolation in the sky
Wreckage in torrents
I could have sworn
God was a monolith
That we erected
Divinity, was it a delirium?
I mean the odyssey was weird
I was on embankments of freedom
And I reasoned
The wingbeats were angels and not demons
Wreckage in torrents
I could have sworn that
God was a forge I invented
Like Frankenstein
I learned to love my chains
They resurrected me
I was a ruined ornament of earth
I reasoned those wingbeats weren't sentencings
Unreadable like a rune
We would all be dead soon
And I reasoned
Disappearing into a creek
Was a nice end
Sifting through the night
Summoned like a starling
To the breeding grounds
And I witnessed
The adamantine gown of the universe
Like an inverted angel
I was in a lattice dreaming
I feared that rhizome was witnessing me
Fracturing was a grace to me
An heirloom in my possession
I couldn't stand it
I panicked I panicked
The wager the wager
Sifting through night
I was in the god-grotto with a wager in my possession
Passage through summer seas
Passage through the empire winds
My fragility like a sacrificial beast
I took shore roads to redemption
A hostage in the hour of the goblin
In imitation of fire I died I died
There were avenues of summer seas
Releasing me into crystalline
I was a sacrificial beast of the winds
Like a monolith of light
Prometheus of the dark grasses
Brandishing blades in the first firelights
Bewildered in sleepless eternities
I found shore roads to redemption
Life like an alchemical seal
I was destroying things for creation
It was a sentencing of light
And I was wise to it
Washing me into oblivion
Alchemy like a temple of Pan
I wasted light
And I panicked
The eternal war
I was an automata of earth
Being that existence
Was it intelligence
I wanted out like a summer thundercloud
I lifted into vacancies
That released me into summer eves
Immortality is not for me
Immortality is not for me
Existence was an exquisite sentence to me
Killing your self for art is survival too
Light ages like lilies of the Nile
I wanted the light ages killing me like desire
And I witnessed the decay of my reason
In the hour of the goblin king
The light ages feared me
The eternal war was on
And I was the chief
The actual love of your life is not necessarily the person you are with but the person you long for. I’ve used the word desire so many times that I feel I should clarify: The Fragility is about my desire…for a pool. It was desire, wasn’t it? And I desired that I was swimming.
Between Worlds
The fragility was screaming to me I was between worlds a delay in merry mayhem the fragility was screaming in my bones I fear it needed me screaming in my homelands the fragility was screaming need to me I needed it to set me free I was between worlds so much the better I was a mourning dove fettered the fragility was screaming to me do that thing travel that land and yes under the abundances I panicked
It was merry mayhem that I fell in like starlight
I desired that it would sing for me
I was between worlds
So much the worse
Like a singing prison
Can you dream up
A sweeter incarceration than need
Prison of the angels punishment
And I needed desire singing for me
I was falling in summer
Like a fisher king desiring immortality
I desired merry mayhem it was merry mayhem I fell in
To neglect that need
And have it come back singing
I was wise to it
The fragility was screaming need to me
And I needed wisdom in an instant
O Caledonia I killed a king
Yes I fell into desire like a summer kingdom
It was despairing to be breathing while that despair was singing in me
And I witnessed
Summer shaking like an earthquake that I was making
Summer fall descending and I desired that it would kill me
Like a summerfire I desired
I wanted to die in
Summerfire season smoking me to death
Summertime season smoking me to rest
Wished on a shooting star that summerfire season would surrender to
The fire living in my bones
A thundering voice from the dust
Got its grip on me like sunlight
I witnessed the end of things
And I was smiling in summer fire season
And I was between worlds like lightning
An apotheosis from the ravines
I was an inferior angel in a conclave of cherubim
For eternity
We were lotus eaters consuming the frosted moon
Like winged heralds with war wounds
Pandemonium was a glen I was escaping from
A midsummers night dream
A beast from the Loch raided the night in a forest of fireflies
I died I died
I was nowhere in that paradise
An eternal war in dormancy
The stars reminded me of the dandelions
That failed our dreams
A book of the dead
Creation like the shrieking verdict of streetlights that I was twinkling under
An obliterating demon that the storms had dreamed of one season summer
We were marauders of Earth’s settlements
Bluebells in a garden of banishment
I burned in agony like the limbs of the fisher king waiting for the chosen
I was out in the battlements of sealights Gatsby at the harbor
I wanted that green light a vital thing living inside of me
It was desire singing in me summerfire season
O Caledonia
Listen heaven was that blessing
Witnessing you dreaming of me
O Caledonia I killed a king
It was the realm of Gabriel I fell in
Aspiring to perfection like a benediction
A deity flying through fair winds
O Caledonia I killed a king
There was a mutiny in heaven witnessing me
Perfection I launched it like a rocket
A berserker in rapture with the shackles of magic
I heard the spheres singing in bridges of opium where the gods were grazing
I roamed the pearling seas
O Caledonia I killed a king
Like a deity following fair winds
I could not survive your judgment
Desire like a blinded prophet still singing
O Caledonia I killed a king
I was wilding into dreams
A yawning earth like a conclave of forgotten gods
The tides of time swallowed me
River Lethe beckoning in my memories
I wanted to annihilate what made me
Like a deity following fair winds
Airborne in a regained paradise
O Caledonia
I killed a king
THE APOCRYPHA II
I feared the floating world existence was a repository of treasuries I was trying to flee into daydreams like an exiled king I was in the realm of the angels and I feared it might kill me and I wished it would and I feared it was an annihilation I had sought and I witnessed the distances grow we were hallucinating the first betrayal besides there were other terrors Angels in America? I would have seen one the rails of trains were getting up under me and there was no reason we couldn't die like Anna Karenina by the trains to witness the devastation secondhand I lived again after reincarnation it was desire wasn’t it
Existence like a root in my throat that kept growing it was desire wasn't it our death was guaranteed and I panicked before that desire witnessed me in the newborn dawn and let me tell you I was gone! I was gone!
I had a habit of vanishing into time I was gone the brutality witnessed me as I was rooting it was sacrilege in sacred spaces who could survive the dynasties in the newborn dawn even I wanted me gone irisdescent it was desire wasn't it and I desired it stakeout in the Elysian peaks and I was avoiding it all silvered like the moons rival sinking in the glittering grief seas of existence and the thunder said don't be in agony while the summer still dreams but it was a surplus of summer a colonnade of clouds like the black gulfs of Babylon the hanging trees of heaven wanted me gone in the gallows of darkness and I wanted to return to the shining hills existence lived in my arteries the singing of sirens I wanted to die in a chyralis oh god! It was existence wasn't it and I desired it would kill me it was chaos and I stand in it
The miracles were lynching me like a Wolf in a Chalice the holy grail polluted by carrion and I carried on peacekeeping yes I panicked the haunting of me year by year chrysalis the miracles were lynching me the violence of lightning transfiguring into fire I lived on primordial time I swore off allegiance to the flesh but that sublime violence remembered us the apocalypse in my throat and I chose it dream-catcher hanging in the gallows trees with that Reverend night beast with its jaws the world in border fires ran scarlet in the night like a beast with its jaws gravitating to devastation year after year and I wanted— like the gold of God the apocrypha from the seas of consumptive june consumed by june a cyclops hungering for me lost in the Hollywood Hills it killed me it killed me a valley of beasts baring darkness with its emanations the singing of sirens I wanted to die in a chyralis oh god!
It was desire wasn't it desire like annihilation Promethean fire like a burning bush beneath the Mountain of God I AM WHO I AM it was desire that had become a mountain to me like a sacred vestment an abundance become waste I went to the wastelands like an altar for a past me I feared it would kill me and that I wanted it too it was desire wasn't it lifting me into the colonnade of clouds like the shrine of a virgin that birthed the universe celestial poles like Colossus forming the boundaries of the universe and I panicked I sacrificed reason it was desire as an execution and I reasoned it that if it listened it could have my existence and it did and I surrendered the illuminations it was desire like an execution that I couldn't speak of it released me into the newborn dawn the singing of sirens I wanted to die in a chrysalis oh god!
THE APOCRYPHA I
The passion according to me like an exiled king I was in the realm of the angels with ethereal visions I was stolen by the abundances devastation like a roadside picnic and yes I panicked we were stranded in the strange seas of solaris the light ages were fables before there was too much silence ships sinking like beacons of our endings it was a disaster and I needed its momentum for the time being shining sabbath of dawn I fell for your duplicity the abundances finished me my mind was a machine like a cybernetic creation
and I witnessed—
Fool's Gold
Desire isolated me into the infinities desire was living in my limbs like an illness that I couldn't get rid of peacekeeping well I had had it an ephemeral joy like straw turning into gold dinner with Rumpelstiltskin but I brought fool’s gold peacekeeping well I had had it heaven was private property and I brought the fiery things to set that Elysium ablazing adamantine heaven was like a breath of life I wanted the gold even if it was foolish I was the cuisine of a deity the glories were not evenly distributed and I wanted more of them desire surviving the nations existences it was exhilarating to be the dinner of a deity I was stranded on some other planet peacekeeping well I had had it I wanted that desire exhilarating me into the infinities it was war and I was the chief
The fragility was like an engine of creation
Desire turned me into a vacancy
Peacekeeping well I had had it