Existence like a whisper to me I was a spectacle of shattering in an Ark of Darkness Paradise behind bars Paradise under lock and I sought it! God vacated us it was blooming doom like a garden on the moon
Oasis of darkness why was the garden of Paradise so far? Like a newborn breathing I melted into quivering Eternity I lived in liminal time the divine light was a serene beheading that sentenced me I dreamt I would die in obedience the void wasn’t vacant enough—it needed us! Tomorrow was a treasure in departure and yes for a moment we shared that wisdom and the void listened to us! Eternity was a treasured departure that we waited for Eternity was an afterthought that Time forgot imitator of light an afternoon I surrendered to angel of vengeance I wondered if the gods were afraid of us?
Surely it was religious to bury those witnesses surely it was religious to assault the planet it was chaos I inhabited it was freedom that released me I spoke to the dark and one dreaming eve the dark spoke back the dust of the earth remembered us ancient like primevals sea and do believe me when I tell you that ancient despair remembered me life was an abiding eternity between Void and Void the rolling engine of history like a dark theater I was witnessing and I couldn’t stop it
Reality was baring its teeth and I grieved! I grieved! Existence was an eternity I treasured and I fell in oblivion the luminosity of life was a forgotten brilliance that was killing me and I wanted— I wanted— I felt that desire seize me like a god shouting in a storm cloud the vacancies were consuming me it was liberty in imprisonment the abyss was so deep that I fell into the dark places I met God’s gaze and was surprised to see my face I walked as the summer stars were vertiginously singing in imitation of me how precious to be devoured by an Eternity while I was hanging on the fates loom to be made whole was a kind of sundering even your silence was a statement the time for salvation had ended witnessing that devastation was killing me eternity was departure in a daydream to me the vertigo of the summer stars had eclipsed me it was so sweet of an apocalypse that I nearly missed it
For a time my mind was an unrivaled shore it was a cradle in the darkness it was as if a demon had marked me I took a night train through the stranding marshes of darkness it was too vast an eternity and I panicked I witnessed the Passion of the shattering of fragile things we were descendants of that darkness the eyelids of deity like the arrow of an archer in my heart Eternity was a martyr at the altar of Time terrified of the resemblances between me and Eternity I thought desire was resistance the moon was a sacrament in the gorge of my throat churning with smoke it was a conspiracy in agreement eternity upon eternity deferred in a season everything was wounding to me the end of the world could not come soon enough to me it was heaven that despaired of me it was heaven that was scared of me surreal like a pasture of dreams burned by reality we swam to the harbor of the apocalypse resistance it was divine wasn’t it? God was the artist of black skies God was the apocalypse I had forgotten Earth a canopy of beings screaming in need the Fires of Revelation were blooming towards finite me while I was sleeping in the infinites
It was devastating how you were always forgiving me the frigidity of oblivion liquidating me voltage coursing through power lines and I could hear the universe crying Discord was anticipating me as a star I was devastating in my gleaming the carnage was a companion to me like an immortal I wanted a memorial in language silence was a sound to me my soul was awakening Eternity in a day to me an Eternity of freedom that wisdom'd me a thousand years ago the terror witnessed me in my fragility there was grandeur in sinking it was sinister to despair while subsisting but my life didn't feel like existence the fragility witnessed me in my sacred need it was existence regarding ME like a sacred thing I was deteriorating in graces I wanted the fragility to be history but the devastation was returning the event horizon collapsing before us the end of the world was hesitating all the eternities waited in line to devastate me and not only had I begged for it—I was ready for it Time the event horizon swallowed me in sublimity
I thought the end coming for me was a resounding victory deep in the entrails of a nightmare yes the magnificent invaded me! The brutality met me in my dreams despairing paradise I wouldn't cry valor in a summer symphony it was wisdom to be disintegrating that singularity swallowed us the moon was a station lamp in the ornamented marshes of darkness I witnessed the summertime riches existence was killing us I summoned the collapse of stars and they summoned me supernova I was a divine thing shattering
Fires rising in the rhythmic dark the cosmos witnessed me desire collapsing in me I felt it was wise to pause and celebrate and there was I hesitating while sunlight became lightning in a universe that wanted us dead every sound was a symphony to me the cosmos was a chaos of sounds that rushed on toward us
It was an event horizon that witnessed me in my shattering from the punishing silence of infinity unless fireborn you cannot know the terror that witnessed me I made a miracle of decay the arteries of God were draining obsession was a violence that made an eternity out of finite us engines of creation raiding us god in a lightning storm those angels were raiding us we were divine things in a prison I heard the spheres like music quaking in my ears I couldn’t survive it wasn’t the right planet like a ballerina dancing to indifference the dissolution was waiting for us the fragility like a candle kept flickering on I was an exiled spirit in the gulf between heaven and earth I match the moon in obscurity the cruciform silence of the winged ones we waited day after day the daylight consecrated me the daylight was afraid of me the stars in their scattering astonished forsaken me it was a tragedy in abeyance and I fear it advanced while I was sinking in the sieve of the sky I thought I had dreamed it the highlands of the skies were rising I was wise to it! Disappearing seemed favorable like a character in a fable I waited for something to amaze me
There was wisdom in disobedience it was Reason wasn’t it? Sinking in the sieve of the sky to desire the miraculous and to be met with silence I was shaken by that nursery of fire Desire that ungovernable freedom of fire astonishment was a Cosmos beckoning to me I was a stranger in that land of wanting a thousand years I disappeared there was wisdom in vanishing it was existence I lavished in a daydream the World was splitting at the seams the anxieties were circumscribing me it was Revelation in reverse what a delirious sinking existence wounded me like an arrow from the angels the shattering of language was catharsis all of creation was an execution anguished I was through and through I was sure the universe dreamed of us the edge of unbeing collided with me the fragility surely needed me it was greed to be displeased with existence in the corridors of Time that devastation would find us I feared the constellations would not spare me the magnificent carnage consecrated me and I feared I caused it even discord was divine to me it was a summer symphony and I wanted—
